Secret Love(on-going)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

Favor

"Yami! It's your turn!" sigaw ni Sadie. Kinuha ko ang Dice na nasa kamay nya and i rolled the dice.

"6! Move your player, Yami!" excited nyang sigaw.

Napabuntong hininga ako bago ginalaw ang player. Am i being mature or masyado yatang isip bata ang mga kaibigan ko.

Sinandal ko ag likod ko sa malaking puno. Ang ibang teacher may lakad kaya wala masyadong klase. Nasa ilalim kami ni malaking puno. Dinala ni Claudio ang snake and ladder nyang laruan. We were so bored kaya nag laro kami. While the other busy about something.

"how are you and Easton?" tanong ni Agnes na umupo sa tabi ko at sinandal ang ulo sa balikat ko.

"i don't know, Agnes"

"What?" bigla nyang nilayo ang ulo sa balikat ko at umupo sa harapan mo. "What do you mean, Yami?" mariin nyang tanong.

"Nag away kayo?"

Umiling ako.

"Sinaktan ka nya?"

Umiling ako.

"na turn off ka?"

Umiling ulit ako.

"then, what do you mean?"

Umupo ako ng tuwid at hinawakan ang kamay nya.

"when you said that love isn't called love when you can't get hurt. Can love heal the scars made by itself?"

Nanatili syang nakatingin sakin. I saw pain crossed in her eyes. She's hurt cuz i'm hurt too.

"Why? Something happened?" nag aalala nyang tanong.

Akmang sasagot na sana ako ng biglang tumunog ang cellphone ko.

Kinuha ko ang cellphone sa bulsa para tignan kong sino ang tuwamag 'unknown number' dinapuan ko muna ng tingin si Agnes bago umalis at sagutin ang tawag.

"Hello? May i know who is this?" pormal kong tanong.

"Yami, hija?" natigilan ako ng marinig ko ang boses ni Mrs Thompson.

"Mrs- i mean Tita?"

"I want to talk to you, are you busy?"

"h-hindi po tita. Saan nyu po gustong mag-usap tayo?" my heart start to beat fast. Somethings gonna happen.

"Nasa Phambucks ako. Hindi na man siguro ganon ka layo sa school nyo."

"Sige ho Tita. I'll be there for a minute."

"thank you"

Hindi ko sya sinagot at pinatay ang tawag.

A small tear formed in my eyes. His mother is back. At sa boses palang ng ina nya nahihirapan na ito. Hindi na ako magulat kong ano pa ang paguusapan namin doon. And it's about decision and choices.

Nahihirapan ako when i'm between two things. And one should be choose. Pero mas nahihirapan akong makita na nahihirapan ang taong mahal ko. between me and his mother.

"Yami!" sinalubong ako ng kaway ni Mrs Thompson. She's inches away. At kahit malayo i saw a dark circles below her eyes. "Your Mom is taking Sleeping pills just to sleep."

Hinalikan ni Mrs. Thompson ang pisngu ko bago nilahad ang upuan sa harap nya.

"What do you want to eat?" she asked when i finally sit.

"a juice will do"

"okay, juice then!" masigla nyang sabi at tinawag ang waiter para umorder.

My heart is beating wild and fast while aching.

"I'm sorry to bother you at this kind of hour" she sincerely said.

"it's okay," tipid kong sagot.

"well... I just want to talk to you about uhnmm" lumunok sya na parang na hihirapan. I look away and smiled bitterly.

"about Easton?" pagtatapos ko. Gulat syang napatingin sakin.

Umayos sya ng upo. Intertwined her fingers at nilagay sa ibabaw ng mesa. She look me with sad eyes.

"He's father is in the Hospital. Lying down in hospital bed for a month. The company is slowly falling down. Me, i'm okay. But i know how you love Easton so much. And you need him, i can see. But i need him too. Araw-araw ko syang tinawagan, para sumunod sa States. Pero he choose to stay with you. I can see that his happy with you. I want you to end up together cause i like you for him. You to totally change him. You've changed him to much. I love to see his happy smiles. But Yami, hija. I need him too" my eyes watered.

I know Mrs Thompson need him most. But it hurts. Seeing a person hurting because of selfishness it tears me apart.

"I am so lucky to have Easton" Panimula ko habang hinahayaan tumulo ang mga luha ko. " he will not be my first love. But he will be my last. He's the First ever guy accept me with all of his heart. The guy who make my heart beats. And i can't let him go" mataman kong sinabi ang paghuli.

"I know. And he is so stubborn. Hindi sya aalis hangga't hindi ka umaalis." natigilan ako sa sinabi ng ina nya.

Why love have choices? Why love can be hard? Nagmamahal lang naman yung tao ba't kailangan pa saktan?

"i have no intention to cut your love together. I'm always here to support you two. But. This time. I need him . I need him to help us in our company." a tear fall down form Mrs. Thompson eyes.

I hate myself for being selfish. Keeping him with me. Somebody needs him now. I have no choice. But to hurt ourselves. I know i can meet him afterwards. And i bet in that time. He probably happy.

My chest hurt thinking him with someone happily. If i can't make him happy for the rest of my life atleast i make him happy before. Parang gripong tumutulo ang mga luha ko sa pisngi.

He will probably regret meeting me! From hurting him.

"I'm scared that someday you'll leave me" napahikbi ako sa naalala. What will he do? Anong gagawin nya kung ganon nga?

Fuck love!

"i hate to ask this one, yami. Cuz i know it hurting you" inabot nya ang naka yukom kong kamay sa ibabaw ng lamesa.

"life is like a rock. It's hard. But if you'll will keep moving and learning what's right and wrong. Life could be soft as pillow to"

"Yami, hija. Can i have a favor?" natigilan ako sa sinabi nya.

Maybe it's not the end of both of us. He can start a new life. A new beginning. A new world. Without me.

I have no choice. But to choose what's right. Not for me but for him.