Secret Love(on-going)

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

Suffocate

Agad kong nilagok ang tequila na sinerve sakin ng waiter. After i left Axel i drive fast at Cormick Bar, hindi ko na hinanap si Aiden, i hurriedly took an table for myself. My head starting to spinning but i didn't bother.

When i was a child i was afraid of ghosts. As i grew up i realized people are more scary. I'm trying my best to swallowed the words they gave me.

I took off my leather jacket ng makaramdam ng init. Boys flock towards my table, but i always shout them to get off.

"Get lost, you bastard" sigaw ko sa isang lalaki na biglang pinulupot ang braso sa beywang ko.

"easy" aniya at nilagay sa ere ang kamay na parang sumusuko. "Heart broken ka yata" he huskily said.

I rolled my eyes and ignore him.

"Yami!" inangat ko ang paningin ko ng may tumawag ng pangalan ko. I saw Aiden half running towards me.

I smiled and continued drinking.

"What are you doing here alone?" salubong nya ng makalapit.

"Thank you for inviting me, but i want some space with my self" i said.

"Heart broken?" anito at umupo sa tabi ko.

Do people always drink because the're heart is broken?

"Porket gusto lang mapag-isa broken hearted agad?" sarkastiko kong tanong sabay sulyap sa kanya.

I saw him shrugged.

"Don't wait for the opportunity to come to you instead create opportunity by yourself" kunot noo kong syang tinignan.

I'm confused.

"Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?" umiwas ako ng tingin at uminom.

It's funny how the people who know the leats about you, always have most to say.

"Everybody deserve a second chances, but not for the same mistakes." seryuso nyang sabi habang nakatingin sa mga mata ko.

I feel like he hit a two birds in one stone. How clever!

"Stop acting like you know my pain!" i hissed!

He smiled and tap my shoulder. Natigilan ako sa ginawa nya. I met him today, but he's acting like we've met years ago.

Damn you Aiden!

"I'm just saying that, things have never been before like the way they are today in history" natigilan ako sa sinabi nya.

He smiled and stood up. Leaving me Physically consciously and mentally unconsciously.

Hilong hilo na ako matapos lugukin ang lahat ng alak na inorder ko.

My day became weirder and weirder. And each day pass i don't know how to handle them. I don't know how to make it okay.

Kinuha ko ang leather jacket at tumayo
Bahagya akong natumba ng maramdaman ang pagkaikot ng paningin ko.

Fuck! I can't drive like this.

I tried my best not to fall down while walking out to the club. I can't call Agnes. Siguradong black eye ang makuha ko sa kanya. I can't call Axel either. We have personal issues.

Napahilig ako sa hood ng kotse ko ng magsimulang umaligid ang mg luha ko.

Pride! Stupid pride! Mataas kasi yung pakineng pride ko kaya hindi ko agad maintindihan. Pero kailan pa? Kailan pa ba ako makaintindi?!

Natigilan ako ng makita si Easton nakasandal rin sa kotse nya habang naka bulsa ang dalawang kamay.

Ganon na siguro ako ka bulag para hindi man lang makita at namalayan na nasa harapan ko sya.

"E-Easton?" i whispered.

Napako ako sa kinatatayuan ko ng bigla syang lumapit sakin. Nilagay nya ang dalawang kamay sa kotse ko. Locking me with his arms.

"Ano?" lasing kong tanong. I can't hold my words, bigla nalang itong lumabas ng kusa. "Explanation na naman ba?" natatawa kong tanong sabay kagat ng labi ng matanto ang ginawa.

His eyes darkened and jaw clenching.

"Ba-" i stop with he attacked my lips.

It's been a year since i kissed him, since we kissed. And i admit that i missed it. I miss him, pero yung pride ko lang kasi ang pumipigil sa gusto kong gawin.

"things have never been before like the way they are today in history"

A tear fell down before i close my eyes and response to his kisses.

He titled his head to kiss me more. He kiss me hungrily that make my heart pound faster.

Every movement of his lips together my tears fell.

He immediately place his forehead on mine and wipe my tears away. We were breathless, trying to take some air.

We stayed a minutes like that. Only breahtless voice sorrounded the place.

"Come with me, baby?" bigla kong inangat ang paningin ko sa kanya. My heart skip a beat. It's the first time he didn't ask for explanation.

"E-Easton?" at that moment i don't know what to say or what to do. I stilled and shocked.

"This is not the first time i'd ask you to come with me, but this is the last time i will ask." parang may dumaan na palaso sa puso ko na syang dahilan ba't sumakit at dumugo. "I don't need a fucking explanation now. I just want you to come with me, make our own family, make dosen of children." mariin nyang pinikit ang mata nya at hinilig ang noo sa noo ko habang hawak-hawak ang magkabila kong pisngi. "because, baby. I need you, i can't breath normally without you by my side. I'd try to forget you but it didn't work. I hate you for being so strong these past few years. Because i want to be selfish. I want you to need me . I want you to miss me like crazy, cuz, baby i need you so fucking hard!" my heart skip a beat when i saw a tear fall from his eyes. "He hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko pag wala ka" he whispered.

I can't breath the moment he said the last sentence. I'm suffocating each seconds.

I don't know what's happening to me but.

I like how he says the words his saying. I love the way how his tears fell because of me. Because i want to see him going crazy because i was not on his side. I love the way how possessive he was. And i feel sorry for him. For making him hurting because of me.

My breath hitched when he hug me tight. At may sarili ding utak ang mga kamat ko para yakapin sa pabalik.

The truth is, i want to be with him for the rest of my life. I want to build a family with him. But i know there's no perfect relationship. At ako yung tipong babae na susuko agad kung may kunting problema. And if i will be with him, i don't know what will happen. I don't know how to handle a serious relationship like this.