Chapter 36
Fight
Pinagsiklop ko ng kamay ko sa ilalim ng mesa at pinaghiwalay ulit at hindi panakabilang ng ilang segundo ay pinagsiklop ko ulit.
I was nervous as wreck infront of her pero hindi ko iyon pinahalata. After she surprise me by calling, she asked me to take a sip of coffee for a while.
I can't say no, not just we exchange words before but she's the mother of my love, so i respect her so much.
"Yami, hija" bigla akong napaangat ng tingin sa kanya. Kanina pa kami nandito pero walang nangyayari. It really feel so awkward.
"P-Po?" i asked with daze.
She let a deep sighed bago umupo ng tuwid.
"Are you okay?" napakagat ako ng labi ng matanto kong gaano sya kaalala.
Am i distracting her by my attitude right now?
"Of course, Mrs. Thompson" i place a faked smile on my lips. I always force my self to smile even i can't but like what they say. 'A smile doesn't always mean a person happy, sometimes it's simple means they are strong enough to face their own problem'
"How many times do i have to say to you to call me Tita or Mommy so whatever." bahagya akong na gulat sa sinabi nya.
What the fuck is happening here?!
Laking gulat ko ng nilahad nya ang kamay nya sa harapan ko. I look her confusingly. Ginalaw galaw nya ito. And at that moment i realized what she meant.
Dahan dahan kong nilagay ang kamay ko sa nakalahad nyang kamay. She hold my hand tighter like will disappear any seconds.
"Yami, hija. If your still haunted by the past. I'm here to say let it be. Because it's all in the past. It may become a history. And i'm so sorry for what i've did years ago. I was just to helpless and stress for the company, but believe me hija, i like you. I like you for my son. Seeing you know here infront of me makes me feel guilty for what i did years ago. I'm the reason why you two broke up. And i'm the reason why my son suffered those days without you, and i can't bare seeing him like that anymore. Yami hija" mas lalo nyang hinigpitan ang pagkakahawak sa kamay ko. "let me correct my mistakes from you and my son" nananatili akong tulala sa gulat at walang na tamo.
I was distracted with her sincerity words.
Halos umabot ako ng limang minuto bago na tauhan.Bumuntomg hininga ako ng hindi alam kong ano ang gagawin. Naguguluhan ako.
"T-This is t-too f-fast" wala na akong masabi. I run out of words. Parang gusto ko nalang manahimik habang buhay.
"I know, hija. But i already told Easton." my jaw dropped. "I said everything to him. Mga araw na lagi syang umiinom, madaling araw na syang natutulog at hindi pa nag iisang oras ay babangon na sya para pumasok sa opisina. That time. I really felt guilty" nataranta ako ng makitang may na mumuong luha sa mga mata nya.
"M-Mrs. Thomps- i mean tita, it's okay. It was not your fault. May kasalanan rin ako. Kasalanan ko rin kung bakit hindi ko sya ipinaglaban." tumikhim muna ako bago ulit nag salita. My troat is runnjng dry. "Kasalanan ko rin kung bakit ako nag sinungaling kung pwede man lang sinabi ko ang totoo." i breath.
She smiled at hindi ko ring maiwasan ang mapangiti pabalik.
"Can i invite you for dinner tonight, hija?" natigilan ako sa sinabi nya. " i want to settle things. Please let me hija?" napaiwas ako ng tingin. Goshh.. For pete's sake... Bigyan nyu akong lakas na lumaban.
Wala na rin akong magawa kundi ang tumango. Atleasr i felt a little bit happy seeing her happy too.
This time. Can i fight for him? Can i win him back from...Lucy?
"Tita?" bahagya kung tanong at natigilan na man sya sa pag inom ng Orange juice na inorder nya kanina.
"Yes, hija?"
"About Lucy and Easton"
My heart start to pound faster ng makita ko syang na gulat sa sinabi ko.
"What's about them hija?" naguguluhan nyang tanong.
"Lucy was Easton's first love am i right?" bahagya syang napaiwas ng tingin. At that i can't help my fears built and covered my heart and body. "When i saw Easton again in your house while checking Mr. Thompson's blood. At first hindi ko alam na asawa nyu po pala iyon. Chairman Mariano just give me the address. But he didn't give me the names and other. I saw Easton and Lucy entering the house. Lucy introduced her self as Easton's girlfriend. I just want to clear if they get back together. Because i don't have to meddle Easton's and Lucy's relastionship" kunot noo ko syang tinitigan ng makitang may lumalarong ngiti sa mga labi.
Damn it!
"Hija, do you still love Easton?" speechless.
"I- Uhmm...I-I...uhmm" i can't speak. Parang may bumabara sa lalamunan ko na pinipigilan akong magsalita.
"If you love him, why can't you fight for him?"
"But he and Lu-"
"Lucy and him didn't get back together." napaawang ang mga labi ko.
Fuck! I'm going conscious!
"Hija, That question is nothing to do with me. If you wanna know or your eager to know then ask Easton yourself. Endure all the pain you felt. Because like what they say. After the Rain there's a rainbow." nakangiti nyang sabi.
Pilit akong ngumiti kay Easton ng makita syang naka hilig sa hoodie ng sasakyan at naghihintay sakin. Wearing a tuxedo. That makes him look like a Business man who always seeing in pornsite.
After that consciously talk with Mrs. Thompson. Dumiretso ako kaagad sa opisina. Needing air but i can't find air.
The night Easton asked me to come with him. I made my decision. Less or not.
"You okay?" tanong nya at hinawakan ang beywang ko para mayakap.
Fighting for love. Claiming mine. Understand the people around me. Specially the people who loves me.
"I'm fine" pagod kong sabi sabay yakap pabalik. I missed this brace.
Bahagya naman nyang nilayo ang mukha pero nananatiling magkadikit ang katawan namin.
"Seriously, baby. That word is the biggest lies on the world" he said while looking to my eyes.
I want to say the words i want to say. Pero parang maypumipigil sakon.
"You said, were going to talk?" pagiiba ko ng usapan.
He pulled me closer to give me a tight hug before bracing out.
"Yes, were going to talk but first, let's eat dinner at our house. I want you to meet my parents. Again." standing there. Watching at my reaction. Bahagya syang kumunot noo ng makitang walang nag bago sa expression sa mukha ko.
Hindi na ako na gulat.
"Baby," tawag nya ng hindi ako kumikibo.
He drive the car papunta sa penthouse para mag bihis. Napahinto nya ng kunti ang sasakyan ng makitang traffic.
"Hmmm?" tanong ko.
"Bakit hindi ka man lang na gulat sa sinabi ko kanina?" nagtataka nyang tanong.
Bahagya akong nangamba. Paano ko sasabihin? Can i tell him that:
'oh your Mom visit me earlier'.
'your Mom told me?'
Are those reason are necessary?
"uhmmm" tumikhim muna ako bago nagsalita. "It's n-not new to me. All my s-suitors back in c-college always want me to i-introduced to their p-parents. Bakit pa ako magugulat?" i lied. Fuck!
Bahagya akong napa tikhim ng makitant umigti ang kanyang panga at nandidilim ang mukha.
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