If Only (Rainbow Series #1)

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

I was holding back my sobs while wiping the tears continuously falling from my now swollen eyes.

What's the big deal, really? Ano naman kung bisexual ako? Walang mali, lalong walang masama!

Hindi ko tuloy maiwasan mainggit kay Iris. When she admitted her feelings, people didn't reacted this way. There were lots of people in this university who were members of the LGBT community. I don't want to imagine the pain they might get if they were on my shoes or if they heard every words. I was sure, Iris will go ballistic if she was with me back there.

I should have listened when I was told to be careful with that Gabrielle. Bagay talaga sila ni Luis! Bakit hindi na lang sila magbalikan? Ako pa ang unang kikiligin... I almost puked with that thought. Kadiri!

Mahinang hikbi na lang ang maririnig sa loob ng kotse. Tumigil na din ang pagtulo ng luha ko. When I took a glace on my compact mirror, I looked horrible. My light makeup were washed off by the tears, leaving me with my pale face. So I decided to, at least, put some color on my face.

Nang matapos ay tinignan ko ang oras, may klase pa siguro si Haley. Lumabas ako ng sasakyan at dumiretso sa likurang bahagi nito. I hissed when I looked at the words that stained my white car. I can't helped but accused Luis for doing this thing on my car, it wasn't a coincidence that he was here and then this!

"Fuck you, asshole!" I cursed when I realized it was written using a spray paint.

Walang nagawang pumasok na lang ulit ako ng sasakyan. Haley would definitely see that!

Nakakapagod din pala ang magalit kaya 'di ko namalayang nakaidlip ako habang nakapatong ang ulo sa steering wheel.

I immediately lifted my face when I felt someone staring at me.

"Haley.." sabi ko ng makita ko siyang nakatingin sa akin.

Anong oras na ba? Did I overslept? Was I dreaming?

"Sorry," hingi ko ng paumanhin saka mabilis na umayos ng upo.

Nanatili lang itong nakatingin sa akin kaya kinabahan ako bigla. How I wish it was all a dream.

"What really happened?" tanong niya.

Unti-unti na namang bumabalik ang sama ng loob. Hindi ko siya agad sinagot, so it wasn't a dream. Pinakalma ko muna ang sarili. Nang magkaroon ng lakas ng loob ay saka ko pa lang siya nilingon. Kinakabahan ako sa magiging reaksiyon niya.

"They found out," sabi ko sa mahinang boses. "I don't know how. But I can fix this, I will settle this, I promise."

"My friends were asking me if I am your girlfriend.." sabi niya, "Since we're so close.."

"Don't worry, mahal. The issue will eventually subside. Besides, we've talked about this, already. Unti unti tayong aamin, 'di ba?"

"I said no cause I'm in a relationship with someone else," patuloy niya, hindi pinansin ang sinabi ko saka nag-iwas ng tingin.

Nanatili akong nakatingin sa kaniya, tinatantiya kung ano talaga ang gusto niyang iparating.

"Okay. But you could have told them the truth though. They're your friends. We owe our friends the truth," paliwanag ko.

I don't want her to be involved in this mess. But this is also a good chance to admit our relationship to our friends.. tell them step by step.

"I said I'm in a relationship with someone.." ulit niya.

Tumango ako. Mula sa pagkakahawak sa steering wheel ay kinuha ko ang kamay niya, pinagsalikop ko iyon.

"Yes, mahal. You have a point, dalawa dapat tayong aamin," malambing kong sabi habang pinagmamasdan ang kamay naming dalawa.