If Only (Rainbow Series #1)

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

SPG

Haley is kissing me back. My insides are throbbing and palpitating. I am on fire. I don't know if it is because of the alcohol thats dethroned my senses or the overflowing feelings I feel for Haley.

Sometimes I dreamed of Haley and I kissing and making out, a wet dreams, you call. I thought it was beyond reality and I could die hoping for it to happen. But experiencing it firsthand, for real, makes me more eager to kiss all of her.

I stop french kissing her. I don't want her to regret what we did the next day. So as my senses is still present, I will prevent it to happen. Even though, all of me were not agreeing.

I move my head just an inch away from her. The alcohol in me were now gone. And I could say, the heat I'm feeling now is because of me wanting Haley for myself.

"I'm sorry." I apologize as I remove my hands from her face and took a step backward. I'm scared I might make her feel disgusted to me, to my feelings.

Haley open her eyes and look at me with those eyes, sleepy and aggressive.
Namumungay pa ang kaniyang mga mata. Ilang sandali pa bago niya na-proseso ang nangyari sa aming dalawa. Muling nabuhay ang kaba at takot sa akin. Ang init ay unti unting tinutupok ng panlalamig.

"What... just happened?" She murmured as she was about to cry. Fucking shit.

"I'm sorry Haley..."

Kung kanina parang isang masayang panaginip na natupad ang naranasan ko, ngayon parang isang masamang panaginip ang nag-materialize at ngayo'y hinihiling ko na sana hindi nalang nangyari. A beautiful nightmare.

Hindi niya ako sinagot. Sa halip ay ginala niya ang mga mata niya sa parking na kinaroroonan namin, medyo malayo layo na din kami sa bar. I'm sure our friends were not worried because they've seen us leave together and probably thinks we already got home.

"Where's your car?" She asked coldly that I almost shiver, for it is colder than the night breeze itself.

I don't know if I should feel relieved that I don't see any disgust in her or feel scared for the cold treatment.

Hindi na'ko nagtangka pang magsalita ulit. Nahihiya ako sa ginawa ko dahil alam kong kasalanan kong buo ang nangyari. Iginiya ko siya sa ispasyo kung saan nakahinto ang sasakyan ko. Kung magpapahatid man siya ngayon, di naman ako mababahala dahil may dala ring kotse si Iris at siya ng bahala kung lasing man si Cy.

Pinatunog ko ang BMW ko. Pumasok siya sa front seat, ako nama'y pumwesto sa harapan ng stirring wheel. I'm hesitating if I should maneuver the car or... damn Bea, of course! You should drive her home.

Sinulyapan ko siya at akmang tatanungin na kung uuwi na ba kami o mananatili pa ng sinimulan niyang buksan ang usapan. Malayong malayo sa naganap kaninang halikan ang litanya niya.

"Luis and I broke up." Panimula niya at ambang maiiyak na ngunit pinalis ito ng kanyang kamay.

Hindi ako nagsalita. Itinuon ko lang sa kaniya ang aking buong atensiyon. Hinihintay kong ituloy niya ang himutok. Dahil hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko.

"He tried t-to... rape me." Haley confessed and tears roll down her face like water falls.

I am shock. Hindi pa man buo ang kwento ay sobra sobrang galit at poot na ang nararamdaman ko. How dare Luis! He should rot in hell! Gago siya!