What If?// More WDW BxB: Corbyn-Shots

Infinity: Zach

Summary: A glimpse into Zach's life while his boys were away at college

Zach's POV
"It's like I'm frozen, but the world still turns
Stuck in motion, but the wheels keep spinning 'round"
I found that more often than not, I just went along with the motions of each day.

I didn't think about them often, or savor them in anyway. I simply followed the paths I knew by heart, the ones that had been drilled into my brain.

The world kept moving around me, kept changing and the people around me moved and changed with it.

I tried to do the same, to move and change like they all did, but it was as if my world was frozen.

As if it were completely separate from the one everyone else lived in, like it were its own entity. An entity that had stopped moving, had stopped trying.

Except, in moments like this.

" My roommate is always trying to drag me to parties. I swear he goes to one every night."

Moments when my face was alight with the colors of my computer screen, when my natural flush shone with the glow.

" Your roommate just wants you drunk so he can fuck you, Jonah."

When the window was split four ways. One corner for each boy.

" Daniel, stop that. Eben doesn't wanna fuck me."

When I could see Corbyn's eyes crinkle with every giggle.

See Jack light up at each laugh.

" An oblivious flirt? That doesn't make much sense, Joan."

When I could watch Jonah's bangs fall with a fond head shake.

Or see the dark crease of Daniel's gap when he grinned.

" I don't think much about him makes sense, Corbyn."

When I wasn't bothered with the rest of the world, wasn't plagued with thoughts of how much slower I was, how far I was falling behind.

When the heartache finally ceased.

Moments where I could breathe again.

" Times like this make me wonder why the hell I love you four."

When the only thing that mattered was them.

Them and their classes, their friends, their studies.

" Four? I haven't even done anything!" I whined to him, pouting.

" Of course not, Babydoll. You're the only one that keeps me sane."

For right now, in this very moment, my world was spinning again.

Moving and changing just like theirs'.

Even if it would stop the very second my screen went black, even if it were only for an hour or two.

It was okay.

Everything would be okay.

"Keep 'em falling when I know it hurts
Going faster than a million miles an hour
Trying to catch my breath some way, somehow"
I leaned forward, shutting my eyes as Corbyn left on final kiss on my forehead, ran his fingers along my jaw on more time.

He stepped back after, looking at me while the others slowly made their way to the door, whether it be to start college or to return.

It was only when Jack left, that he turned to do the same. Casting one more longing glance over his shoulder at me, hand on the knob.