My Moon Flower 『ᴊᴀᴇᴡᴏᴏ』

Chapter 27 : Silent Prayers

Doyoung POV

Am I a bad friend?  was the only thought I had in my mind when I walked out of the room. My eyes are red as I wiped my tears before I assumed a cold expression. I won't let other people have the opportunity to see me in this state! I thought as I stomp towards the empty bar at the 78th floor. 

My staff knew to clear this place out when I have my outbursts. Decorated in the newest expensive furniture and served the best and expensive liquor in Korea, is the only place I find comfort in. The only place where I can drown my sorrows. And God! I must have became unhappy to come here often, more than I can count in the past few months. It's not something that I'm proud of, but there are just things that I don't want to talk about with my friends. I find the quiet company of myself and my thoughts welcoming than their useless attempt of 'help' and 'pity'.

I sat on a bar stool at the bar counter and poured myself a drink of whatever liquor I can get my hands on. I took my first drink in one gulp and poured another one. Am I a bad friend? In our thirteen years? Was I selfish and inconsiderate? I sighed as I placed the glass down and stared at my knuckles, which is already red and probably swollen. This is the first time I actually punched someone and that someone is my bestfriend.

Or rather was my bestfriend. Is it really friendship over between us? I sighed again as I closed my eyes. 

It was a few years back when I learned that Jaehyun was gay. To be honest, I have my doubts about his sexuality since before, but I just shook it off. I couldn't care less if he's gay or not, he's still Jaehyun, my childhood friend. His mother and I, gave our support without reservation, without judgment as it should be when someone close to you decided to come out of the closet.

But it didn't mean his journey towards his sexuality is not scattered with mistakes. Mistakes, he generally know and conscious of, I thought as I took another drink. Fuck! Just thinking about that bitch makes my blood boil after all these years.

I like how genuine and caring Jaehyun is, but there are just some people that don't deserve that kindness. Minji is one of those people! Like hell, she deserved anything. So, when Jaehyun told me he planned to date Minji so he can just be sure with his sexuality, you can be sure that I totally nagged at him day and night. With his ego, he didn't listen to my unsolicited advise and proceeded with what he thought of as the 'best' course of action at that time. And look at where we are now? Back at square one.

Things turned sour after their 'short trial' of a relationship, when Jaehyun finally realized that he dislike getting kissed and harassed by girls. They broke up and after a few weeks another rumor started to circulate around the school. Jaehyun is gay and we're fuck buddies. No surprises there, but did I changed my attitude towards him when that rumor started going around? No! Did I not told everyone to shut their fucking mouths or else I'm going to shut down their parents businesses? Or risk going to jail or be on the news report as an unknown body at your local dumpsite? I thought as I slammed the glass down on the bar counter while I clenched my jaw until it hurts.

So when I realized Minji is playing victim with emotional blackmail after a year we graduated, I was raging mad. She dared to blackmail my bestfriend, who is so naive to comply with her demands. Who is so fucking gullible like that? Yes Jae, who? I confronted Jaehyun right away and demanded an actual breakdown of how much he already shelled out to the bitch. Call me crazy, but I needed to know. God knows that I wish I didn't!

Two fucking million dollars! She named it, she got it. She had a handsome gullible piggy bank wrapped around her disgusting finger. Did I stood by and let her? No, of course I didn't!  It led me half-dragging one ass Jaehyun to meet up with that freaking bitch that resulted to a lot of yelling, cursing and slap on her face. It took every ounce of my patience not to kill her on the spot and God, I wish I had.