My Moon Flower 『ᴊᴀᴇᴡᴏᴏ』

Chapter 29 : Chaos & Misery

Jaehyun POV

I winced immediately as my eyes tried to focus at the ray of light. The golden rays was pouring in rudely through the partially open blinds, making my head throb more with pain. For a moment, I forgot where I was as I stared at the unfamiliar ceiling blankly. Right, I'm alone in my apartment. How many days has it been? Two? Three? I forgot.

I slid my hand beside me like I used to, but found a cold empty spot instead. I miss waking up beside him. I miss the moments I engrave his face in my mind as he sleep soundlessly. I miss the crinkle of his cute eyes when he laugh. I miss the voice who calls my name endearingly. I miss him. 

But I can't see him yet. Doyoung is right, I need to fix things with Minji first before I see Jungwoo. In that way, I can finally come clean. I can finally leave the past as I should've done before, if only I listened to Doyoung.

Will Doyoung still talk to me? I know I lied to him and I know it was wrong, I sighed as I pulled myself to sit on the edge of the bed. I rested my head in my hands and began to rub my temples, hoping to massage the headache away. I shouldn't have drank that last bottle of soju. Hangover is a pain in the ass. Ugh!

I sat there for a few minutes, just absentmindedly staring at the window until I heard a knock at the door that made me jump out of my reverie.

"You look like shit!" Johnny greeted with his usual cheery voice that made me furrow my brows even more. It kinda annoys me how cheery he is despite what happen. Then again, Johnny is the bright positive person in our group. No matter how upsetting or inconvenient it is, he never lose his positive composure. It's annoying but refreshing at the same time. "Don't give me that look, I'm serious that you look like shit." he added as he threw a towel at me. "Go take a bath! You smell like my Grandpa!"

After smelling myself when he left, I trudge my way to the en suite bathroom and lean on the sink as I look at myself in the bathroom mirror. Fuck! I do look like shit! If Jungwoo would see me like this, he would probably tease..., my thoughts trailed off as his happy face flashed in my mind. No, he will not tease me. Instead he would probably hug me and whisper comforting words in my ear. He will look at me with those puppy eyes filled with empathy, and I will feel warm and happy to know that he cares for me so much.

I look at myself again, my face gaunt and pale after a few days of constant drinking and sleepless nights. The short stiff hairs around my chin started to grow since I haven't shave for some time. My hair is tangled and dry, I can't remember if I showered when I arrived here. My eyes traveled down to my bruised lip, the result of my brawl with Doyoung a few days ago. Lastly, I look at myself in the eye and two lifeless orbs drown in sadness and guilt stared back at me. Get your shit together Jaehyun! I reminded myself as I give my face a slap. I walked towards the shower with a goal in mind : to straighten up everything, once and for all.

After twenty minutes, I stepped out of my room dressed and shaved. My hair is still damped while I rubbed my towel on it. I went to the kitchen and found Johnny on his phone while he sipped his coffee.

"Finally! Now you look decent," he called out as soon as he saw me.

"Why are you here, bright and early?" I asked as I slumped down on the seat across him.

"Uh? It's actually five in the afternoon." he replied as he waved his phone at my face, showing the time.

"And you're drinking coffee?" I asked incredulously. My stomach made a growl as I got a whiff of the coffee.