The Demon's Princess (BAND SERIES 1)

33

CHAPTER 33

Everything has a reason.

I wiped my tears away ay dahang-dahang tumayo. I couldn't feel my legs kaya muntik na akong matumba. Inalalayan ako ni Dra. Lopez at mahigpit na niyakap.

“I know you need one,” She whispered as tears start to fall from my eyes again and again.

Everything wasn't sinking in yet. I didn't know what to do. I want to ask God bakit ako pero hindi ko magawa dahil alam kong may dahilan siya. I want to be strong pero nasasaktan ako. Nahihirapan ako.

I have good intentions to anyone and a hope for everyone. I have dreams and I have plans pero bakit pakiramdam ko ay unti-unting nawawala sa akin ang lahat?

“Your leukemia is getting worse each day without a proper treatment, Emerald. Mabilis kumalat ang cancer sa katawan mo na pumatay ng maraming cells mo,” She started while holding my hand. “You need to undergo therapies and worst to a serious operation.”

“Hindi ko po alam.” I shook my head and looked away. “Wala po akong maintindihan.”

“I'm sorry, but I need to call your parents or guardians—”

“No, please.” I cried more when I suddenly remember the image of my parents on my head. “I'm not yet ready.”

I immediately fix my things and walk out of the room. I don't know kung paano ko kinayang tumakbo paalis. I just found myself in front of our church dahil napakadami kong tanong. Above all, God is the only one I have right now pero bakit pakiramdam ko ay unti-unti niya din akong tinatalikuran.

“Lord...” I cried habang dahan-dahang lumuluhod. “Bakit po ako? Ayokong kwestyunin ka at ang mga plano mo dahil wala akong karapatan pero bakit po ako? Bakit ako pa? Wala po akong hinangad na masama sa kapwa ko. Wala akong inapakang tao. Naging mabuti ako pero bakit ako?”

I didn't know what to do. Everytime na makikita ko ang image ni Demon, ni Mom and Dad, ng Premium, ni Mica and Alice on my mind, it really brokes my heart. My dreams, my plans for our company, my hope for the other people and a future for myself.

“Pwede po bang malaman ko ang dahilan? Ang sakit po kasi. Ang hirap po. Nahihirapan po ako, Lord... I know you're listening. I know you're there. Help me to understand, help me to be strong!” I begged and covered my face with my hand to stiffle my sobs. “Bigyan niyo po ako ng lakas at pag-asa kasi ubos na po ako. Ubos na ubos na ako.”

“You taught me to believe in you. You taught me to trust you. You taught me to seek for you. You taught me to lean on you and you taught me to fight with you.” I looked up and embrace myself. “Can you please teach me also how to move forward and stand still with all of the things that stoping me. Teach me to believe that you're still there dahil hindi kita maramdaman!”

“Show me your light to light my way and reached my heart, Lord. Tulungan mo ako dahil hindi ko kaya 'to mag-isa.”

“Emy?” I immediately wiped my tears away before I turned back and saw Ate Nayz, walking towards my direction with a full smile. “Are you alright? What are doing here?”

“Having a break from everything, Ate.” I smiled also and give her a light hug. “Ikaw?”

“I have a lesson for children's school today,” She shrugged. “And maybe, God send me to someone today.”