Jily one shots

christmas secret (part 1)

disclaimer: written by ninjanervana

A/N so there is 16 parts to this but like ahh it's so adorable i had to repost

Sirius flopped around in his bed, sighing as he stared up at the ceiling. It was after two in the morning; he should be asleep like his fellow Marauders, but he wasn't. Instead he was wide-awake, trying to fight a nicotine craving that was driving him up the bloody wall. Shoving his hand through his long black hair, he sat up, pushing his blanket off of him. A shiver ran through him, goosebumps forming on his skin as the cold air hit him. The castle was always a bit drafty, but with it being the start of Christmas holidays and winter having fully settled in, it was chillier than he would have liked. The dorms were quieter than usual with only the four of them in the room. He would have appreciated it if he could actually fall asleep.

Grabbing his wand off his bedside table, he lit it before reaching for the Map. 'A quick cigarette run couldn't hurt,' he thought as he opened the Map. His eyes quickly scanning the parchment for his favorite smoking spots, he frowned as his eyes landed on the Astronomy Tower. What, in Merlin's name, was Lily Evans doing alone in the middle of the night in the Astronomy Tower?

Climbing out of bed, he tugged on his boots and cloak before heading out of the dorm. It took him a few minutes to make it to the Tower, trying not to wake any of the portraits with his light. The castle was nearly empty for the holidays, but there was no reason to draw unnecessary attention to himself. He took the stairs two at a time, the cold air gusting down the passage to meet him.

Sirius wasn't sure what he expected to find when he finally got to Lily, but he did not expect to find her crouched in a corner, sobbing as if her life was ending. His heart broke as he watched the red-haired girl. Sure, she was his best mate's girl−that alone would have been enough for him to at least wake someone to check on her−but she was his friend too, an honorary Marauder. She was one of the few people he considered precious to him and she looked as if her heart was breaking. Taking a step forward, he pulled his cloak around himself tightly. "Lily?" he called worriedly.

Her head shot up at the sound of his voice as she quickly scrambled to her feet. She hastily swiped at her cheeks, but her red eyes and the tear stains on her cheeks gave her away. "Sirius, what are you doing up here?" she croaked.

"Came up for a smoke," he answered as he walked over to her slowly, as if she was a frightened animal who might bolt at the slightest sound. "Why are you up here? What's wrong?"

"Nothing," she replied quickly, giving him a weak smile. "I just needed some air."

"Ah yes, I, too, leave the warmth of an empty dorm room to go to the top of the Astronomy Tower to sob by myself on Christmas Eve morning," he retorted sarcastically. "Come off it, Lil."

"What do you care, Black?" Lily snapped, shoving her red hair out of her face.

Sirius winced internally at her tone; if she was lashing out at him for no reason, things had to be bad. He'd been on the receiving end of many of her tongue-lashings, but she knew she always had a reason for them, usually a good one though he would never admit it to her. He took another step forward, closing the distance between them. "Black? I thought we got past that. Come on, Lily; we're mates. You're obviously upset and I'm not going to leave you alone like this," he said firmly before softening his tone. "You know you can trust me, right?"

Lily nodded, her green eyes filling with tears as she looked up at him. Her bottom lip quivered as her entire body began to tremble, barely able to contain her emotions. "Padfoot, I'm so scared," she choked out, her eyes wide with terror.

Sirius didn't know what was wrong, what had her so absolutely terrified, but he knew he couldn't stand the fear that shone in her eyes. He did the only thing he could do for her at the moment. He hugged her.

The moment his arms wrapped around her, Lily broke down, sobs racking her body as her tears soaked the front of his cloak.

"It's okay, it's okay, I'm here," he murmured, stroking her hair. He knew he was in way over his head. Remus was always the best one when they need someone to give advice and handle emotions, Peter was always willing to listen to your problems, James was always the one to go to for an encouraging speech. He, on the other hand, was good for a joke or prank. Crying women were not his area of expertise. But he loved Lily like she was his sister; he had to do something.

"James is going to hate me," Lily cried, her words half muffled between them. Her words startled a bark of laughter from him, causing her to look up at him, her tears momentarily forgotten.

"Lily Evans, you're supposed to be the brightest witch of our year. How can you say something so stupid? There is nothing you can do, nothing, that will make James Potter stop loving you," Sirius said confidently.

"Sirius, I'm pregnant," Lily blurted out.

Well didn't that just shut him up.

Sirius really wanted a cigarette. Desperately. After calming Lily down and getting past his own shock, he sat them down on the stone floor, their backs leaning against the wall. His mind was spilling with all the implications of Lily's words and it wasn't even his bloody kid! It was no wonder she was up here sobbing her eyes out; it was a terrifying thought. 'Merlin, a baby,' Sirius thought numbly. 'James and Lily are having a baby.' "Are you sure?" he asked gently. "I mean, couldn't you just be...late?"

Lily nodded, pulling her knees up to her chest. "My body normally runs like clockwork," she murmured. "And it's completely missed its timeframe."

He sighed heavily, wrapping his arm around her shoulders to pull her against his side. "You have to tell James; he'd want to know. He needs to know."

"How am I supposed to tell him?" she asked desperately. "God, I finally start dating the bloke and I ruin it all."

"You haven't ruined anything," he retorted.

"Oh yeah, what do you call getting pregnant at seventeen then?" Lily snarked.

"An accident," Sirius said firmly. "Things happen sometimes."

Lily shook her head. "Happy Christmas, James; we're having a baby," she choked out, tears filling her eyes again.

"Do you want me to help you tell him?" Sirius offered, rubbing her arms soothingly.

"I don't know," she sighed, leaning her head against his shoulder. "I have to figure out how to tell him first."

Sirius nodded in understanding. "If you change your mind, you know where to find me," he replied. "Come on, we should head inside; it's too cold out here." He got to his feet, taking Lily's hand to haul her up.

"Sirius," Lily said quietly as she stood. "Sirius, please don't tell James. I...I have to tell him."

He nodded easily, "Don't worry, Lil. I won't say a word to him." He tugged her arm gently, guiding her to the staircase. "Come on, you're dead on your feet. You need some sleep."

The walk back to Gryffindor Tower was quick and silent except for their quiet footsteps. Soon Sirius was tumbling into his bed, much to his relief, and toeing off his shoes.

"Pads?" James mumbled sleepily, awoken by Sirius's entrance. "Alright there?"

"Yeah Prongs, just went for a smoke," he replied softly. The only response Sirius received was a soft snore from James. 'James, you're going to be a father,' he thought as he stared up at the ceiling, his arms folded beneath his head. 'And I never got my bloody cigarette.'