A Song Of Winter And Spring: Poetry depicting heartbreak And happiness

Smile

Your smile seems to linger
filling my mind with dread.
It repeats it's harmful image, every night I lay in bed.
I used to love the way, your lips would upturn.
Now I wish I could erase it all, maybe then I'd learn.

I've had enough of you and your apologies,
everyone is meaningless and flimsy
now to me.

I wish that you would go,
or maybe, I don't
I just want this Hell gone, and maybe then I'll sleep.

I have enough heartbreak,
and bleeding to last me
It's dull ache I'm used to, I almost feel nothing

Just go away and leave me, and give me back my peace.
I just want you gone, and the voices to cease

It's nothing I can't handle, it's what I tell myself
I pull up with all my might off the floor, but I'm just fooling myself
My muscles ache and tend to fight with every move I make
I tried to stand and move away,
and now I start to shake

It's just enough honey to sooth my cracked lips.
It's just sweetened poison every word you say.
I've swallowed enough to know
I'll only start to decay.
Good bye,
Good bye,
and never return .
Or maybe that's a lie
Who knows anymore with me?
I can't seem to trust myself.
I sigh
Is it relief or just my grief settling in my bones
I have hardly any left
I can hear it in your tone
Good bye,
Good bye,
Please leave me to myself
I only have enough for me