Irrepressible Fixation

✈ 15

Chapter Fifteen

"STOP laughing! C'mon, baby please stop." Maslalo lang lumakas ang tawa ng dalagang si Killani dahil sa sinabi ng kasintahan, nagmamakaawa ito pero nakasimangot naman.

She looked at him with teary eyes. "K-Kasi naman HAHAHA sana vinideohan pala kita no? Ikaw ang nag propose pero nung nag 'yes' ako, kulang nalang ay himatayin ka." Didrik was just looking at her in disbelief.

What's funny? I was nervous as fuck! Hindi din nito inakala na ma-mental block siya dahil sa nerbyos, si Killani naman kasi. Sasagot na ngalang, pinapatagal ba. Ayan tuloy, nag mukha siyang timang. But that's okay, he loves Killani and she can laugh until she runs out of breath.

"That's because you were taking so long to answer! Can't you see? I was sweating bullets last night, even we're still at the café. Baby, you don't know how much courage I gathered just to propose." Nagtatampong sabi ni Didrik bago humilig sa sofa.

Tinignan lang ng dalaga ang kasintahan na sinadyang wag tumingin sakaniya, ang bibig nito ay bahagyang nakanguso. Umiling iling si Killani, kaya pala hindi ito mapakali kahapon. She smirked at Didrik. "Nag propose din naman ako a, hindi karin sumagot pero hindi ako nakaramdam ng nerbyos."

Yes, he talks in English while she answer in Tagalog. Uso 'yan.

"That's because you don't know your effect on me, woman." Inirapan niya si Didrik.

"I have a name and it's not woman, thank you very much." Ngumiti siya ng mapakla dito, of course she's just joking.

They're currently chilling at the living room, just laying on the leather sofa. They are talking but Didrik was busy scrolling through Zalora's app, kanina pa nakaharap ang binata sa cellphone. Mula pag gising hangga't sa almusal, at hanggang ngayon. Ewan ba niya, mukhang na aliw ang kasintahan sa kaka-gasto ng pera. E ang parcel nito ay hindi pa naman dumadating, they slept together last night. Yes, they kissed and that's all. Nang dahil narin siguro sa pagod ay mas pinili nalang nila na matulog, it was the best day of her life.

Sapat na ang sorry ng binata para sakaniya, although 'cheating' is sometimes unforgivable. But she believes that people can change, not just for their loved ones but also for the betterment of their selves. So foolish of her to assume that Didrik loves her, she can feel it though. Kahit hindi pa nila nasabi ang tatlong salita na iyon ay nararamdaman naman niya, she just hope that her guts are right.

Looking back, she still remember how hard she did her best to build up a wall around her heart. Killani pushed Didrik away, not just physically but also mentally. She was scared to take the risk, after what he did to her. Cheating for 2 times, it placed her on a traumatized situation. Pero isang haplos lang ng binata ay nagiging marupok na siya, kaya ayaw niyang magpahawak dito lalo na pag nag-aaway sila.

Dahil parang kahoy ito na nababali nalang bigla.

Kahit wala itong karanasan sa pag-ibig ay hindi naman siya inosente para hindi malaman ang nararamdaman niya, being there to witness her friends jump in glee, napapa-ihi sa kilig, but also watched them trip and fall. It was enough for her to know what love is, but now she's the one who's experiencing it. Killani hates commitment, she tried flirting with some guys, chat with them, but it always ended with 'let's be friends' so she made a rule to herself. Giving guys 1 month trial to keep her interested, to trigger something within her. Make her feel sparks, to make her say 'I wanna keep this guy'. Hindi naman siya manhid pero hindi talaga ito interesado sa mga lalaki, gosh she swear, boys are the most annoying specimens on Earth.

Kaya kahit wala pang 1 month ay tinitigil na nito ang komunikasyon sa mga lalaking ka-chat.

Being a flight attendant really gave her a lot of opportunities to meet hot guys, from different countries and nationalities. Pero wala talagang epekto iyon sakaniya but then, Didrik joined the picture, it only took a glance to make her breathless. Gosh, how she adore this man, aminadong nagalit ito sa binata ng sobra pero ano ang magawa niya?