Irrepressible Fixation

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Chapter Thirty two

HUMAHANGOS na napabalikwas sa kama ang dalagang si Killani, kaagad nitong pinunasan ang luha gamit ng kaniyang nanginginig na kamay. Huminga siya ng malalim upang mapakalma ang sarili, sa mga nag daang araw ay palagi nalang ito nangyayari sakaniya.

She could feel that man's disgusting touch in her nightmare like it's real, and she would wake up in the middle of the night.

Ramdam na ramdam niya pa ang kamay nito sa hita at ari niya, ramdam na ramdam niya parin ang mga suntok nito. Even how many times Killani scrubbed herself clean, it's still hunting her; plaguing her dreams. It tainted her skin like an imprint.

How could that man do that? He didn't know that a touch could hunt a person in their entire life like an invisible tattoo?

Tumayo si Killani mula sa kama at napabuntong hininga, she will always suffer from sleepless nights and it is taking a toll on her. Mukhang mapapahaba ang therapy sessions niya, bumaba ito at dumerecho sa kusina. Kumuha siya ng isang tea bag, saka linagay iyon sa tasa bago linagyan ng mainit na tubig.

She carried the cup, and headed to the house's entertainment room. Alam niya kasi na nandoon ang binata at linulunod ang sarili sa alak. That's what she has observed after getting discharged from the hospital, Didrik will drink a lot until he's passed out on the floor.

Killani knows he's suffering too, but from what? Maybe because he has a new burden to carry which is her? Is Killani asking for a lot? Gusto niya lang naman na alagaan siya nito, pero ginawa niya na? No, the opposite happened; siya ngayon ang nag aalaga sa binata.

Hinayaan lang ni Killani na gumanon ang binata pero ngayon ay hindi na nito matitiis, he shouldn't be doing that. Didrik should not drunk himself to oblivion, both of them have been distant to each other. The last time they talked was when she's in the hospital, did it hurt her? Of course it did.

Didrik would sometimes steal a glance at her, like how she would do the same with him. Pasulyap sulyap nalang sila ngayon, at hindi niya alam kung ano ba ang problema ng binata. Nung makarating sa entertainment room ay tumago muna siya sa gilid ng pintuan para panoorin ang ginagawa ng binata.

Parang gusto nitong yakapin si Didrik, he was just staring at nowhere with his 3rd bottle of rum in his hand. Killani slowly walked towards him, not long enough; she had caught Didrik's attention already. Lumakbay ang tingin nito sa katawan niya bago umiwas ng tingin. He was about to take a gulp from the rum when Killani forcefully took the bottle from his grip and placed it back on the counter.

Bumuntong hininga si Killani. "May problema ba?"

She gulped hard when Didrik stared back at her with his hazy eyes. "Am I a bad brother?"

Napanganga nalang ang dalaga sa gulat nung marinig ang tanong nito, ito ba ang dahilan kung bakit iniiwasan siya ng binata? Killani grabbed a shot glass from the cabinet before serving herself with rum, Didrik was just watching her the whole time.

"Yeah..." Killani whispered before drinking the shot of alcohol, she drank water afterwards. "You know why?" Baling niya sa binata.

"I don't know." Bulong ng binata at akmang ikukuha ang alak, pero tinabig lang ng dalaga ang kamay nito. "Can't I drink?"

Umiling si Killani bago nagsalita. "You're a bad brother because that duty doesn't suit you..." She chuckled. "You'll fit in another character." She gave him a knowing look.

Muli nitong sinalinan ng alak ang shot glass niya, at ininom 'yun. This time, she didn't bother drinking a chaser.

Damn she's good, isip isip ni Didrik habang pinapanood ang dalaga. She's a pro.