Irrepressible Fixation

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Chapter twenty five

"WHERE'S mama?" Tanong ng batang si Didrik sa isang kasambahay.

His face became somber when the lady answered him that someone fetched her mom, it has always been like this. Didrik will see her early in the morning, then late at night. He tried asking his dad for some answers, but for some reason; he would just smile at him.

Napatingin ito sa isang malaking portrait ng pamilya nila na nakakabit sa ilalim ng railings, their happy faces are in full display at the mansion's house. Guests would mistake them for being a happy family.

"I have a happy family.." He whispered to himself.

Or so he thought.

Mabait lang naman sakaniya ang ina pag may tao sa paligid, pero kung sila lang ang natitira; kulang nalang ay sakalin siya nito sa galit.

And he's not even talking about it physically, his mom would verbally abuse him. Which is worse.

Sa batang edad ay na-imulat na ito sa realidad, everything has been like this since day one. Nagtataka nga ito kung bakit hindi siya pinahulog ng ina nung buntis palang ito sakaniya, kasi kulang nalang ay iisipin niya na napilitan lang ang ginang na maging ina niya.

Thank God, nandiyan ang ama niya. His dad was his mom at the same time. Kahit abala sa trabaho ay nagawa parin nitong makipag-bonding sakaniya. But he wonders why his mom would always bring over different men in their home.

Mom and dad are married.. But why? Who are those men?

Linibot nito ang tingin sa paligid, Didrik smiled. From the marble floor, to the high ceiling; everything screams fortune. All of these are because of dad's hard work. Sumagi sa isip niya ang sinabi ng ina.

'You see, Didrik. If it isn't for your Dad's wealth, you will never see me here. Even my shadow.'

Nung una ay hindi nito naintindihan ang sinabi ng ina, pero sa mga nagdaang araw ay unti-unti niya nang nakikita ang ipinapahiwatig ng ina. 

He took another glance at the mansion's exterior. If this place wasn't a mansion, built like a castle. If dad was poor, he will never have a mom. Dad will never have a wife.

'Money completes a person, money makes a person happy; even satisfied. With money, you can buy everything. Name it, you can buy it. Even human, organs, and especially.. Love. No wonder why your dad fell in love with me, I never had the money to purchase such things. But your dad.. Sold his feelings for free, lucky me for having him.' That's what his mother said yesterday.

Is it really true? Love is not enough to keep someone, but money is?

That means, every woman who has feelings for him would only chase him for his money? Is that how love works nowadays?

Napatingin ito ulit sa family portrait nila. "Mom wasn't supposed to be there, she only loves dad because of money. Me, on the other side; loves dad with all my heart." Bulong nito sa sarili.

Nakaramdan ito ng galit sa ina. guldgrävare, fusk tik.

Napabuntong hininga nalang ito bago umakyat sa taas, his father is not yet home because of work. There he is, inside his office making lots of money; and his mom will just waste it on nothing?

Ano nalang ang aasahan niya? Bata palang ito, walang trabaho; at umaasa palang sa magulang. Baka 'yun nga ang dahilan bakit kailan man ay hindi siya minahal ng ina.. Dahil wala siyang pera.

Should he start saving money to have his mom's attention?

Back then, he would always crave for his mom. But whenever he attempts to hug her, she would push him very hard. And damn, it didn't only break his heart; it also ripped his soul. Ang pakiramdam na yakap na ngalang ang hinihingi, hindi pa mabigay. Mula pa sa ina.