I Think I'm In Love Again : Sequel to (Jean Jacket) 14+

Chapter 24. Nothing But The Best

Soda looked over to me still crying, but i could tell he was nervous. Soda then looked away and looked up then closed his eyes. I could tell he didn't want to say anything but the words slipped out of his mouth. " yeah, I knew everything."

He then took a deep exhale looking back at me. I try not to get angry but I let Soda continue talking. " You know that day last year when Dally and I were on a walk ? And you were with Pony in the Curtis' when we got there?"

I get a wiff of realization and nod my head slowly to Soda. " yeah" Soda bites his lip while closing his eyes and covering his face with his hand.

" Dally told me about it. He had a day where he wanted to kill himself. August 22nd " i look away from Soda with a sick, and sour look on my face.

I was no longer angry, but more like useless. And what I didn't understand was why Dally didn't tell me. Soda and Dallas weren't even close to eachother with these types of things. Maybe thats why Dally knew Soda could keep it a secret...

Soda takes his hand off his face. And then says to me again. " Brodi do you know why Dally always acted tough? "

Feeling tense i shake my head towards Soda. " no.."  Soda nods his head and looks away. He didn't look away like he was disappointed, but in a way like he understood why Dally didn't tell me.

He didn't tell me why he acted tough. But instead told me something different. " Brodi everytime Dally and i fought. It wasn't about you, the gang, or things you would think."

I wanted to stand up. But I figured I should sit and hear what Soda needed to say. " I tried to beg Dallas not to kill himself. And everytime I did, we would always get in a big fight."

I closed my eyes and scrunched my nose as if I had a headache. I begin to cry again as Soda continues to talk.

" The day you came home to your house and dally and I were fighting that night...It wasn't the only thing on his mind at that time." Soda looks at the ground clenching his hands into a fist. He was having trouble explaining.

" I was trying to make him not kill himself, but he got mad. And I knew he was going to do what he did that night. And when you started to run after him. I tried to grab your arm because I didn't  want you to see Dally kill himself."

I try and re assure him. I started to feel tears to form in my eyes. " you tried your best...it isn't your fault."

I begin the fidget with the damp dirt and Soda stood up. And began to walk away.  " It is my fault. Everything is my fault Brodi."

I looked up and over at Soda walking away with his hands in his pockets. I wanted to run after him, but i figured I needed to think of what I've done too. He says its his fault, but i know its mine.

Honestly I wanted to go home... but i had no motivation to even walk. I began to cry, as it was still raining. All I could do was cry. And close my eyes to think of all my regrets...