|Issaiah Love|
I wake up once again, still in pain. It feels like it'll never end. It's going on day four and I have yet to be able to hold my baby in my arms. I try to positive but my hormones are all over the place. I just want this nightmare to end.
I groan and I extend my arm to reach to grab the button to produce more morphine. I make sure to use it as sparingly as possible so I don't go overboard. Fuck this is hard to handle!
I say a silent prayer thanking God for another day and getting me through last night. I make sure to pray for Sire and ask God to let him progress to the point that he needs to be. When I'm finished I reach for my phone seeing more texts from everyone's.
"Foreign."
"Yeah, what's up you good?"
"Have you checked on Sire yet?"
"Just about an hour ago?"
"How is he?"
"Doing better everyday. You want me to go down and Facetime you so you can talk to him?"
"Please."
"Gotchu baby."
"Thank you my love."
"No problem baby." Foreign kisses my forehead and put on his shoes.
"I love you."
"Love you too." Foreign walks out the room leaving me by myself. I take a deep breath letting tears run down my face once again. The tears have not stopped since I got here. I know it's just my hormones but I also feel like it could be my depression coming back and I'm terrified. This should be a joyous moment for me but it's being wasted with tears and anger.
My phone rings and I quickly answer. Seeing my baby brings a smile to my face. I can't believe that Foreign and I made that!
"Hi baby, hi mommy's perfect boy! I love you."
"Say hi mommy." Foreign reaches into his little pod, picks up his hand and waves it at me.
"You're getting so big did you eat yet?"
"He ate while I was up here the last time."
"What about his bath?"
"He had it already."
"I can't wait to put you in my arms and kiss you."
Foreign places the phone on him to inform me about his parents."Bae, ma just texted that her and pops are making their way to the room."
"Okay let me say bye to my baby before I go."
"Say bye mommy, I love you."
"See you later baby, I love you." I hang up and rub my face. I take deep breaths to keep myself calm. My baby is getting better with every day that passes and I thank God for that.
There's a knock on the door, indicating that Mama Nat and Mr. Alessando are here.
"It's open."
"Hey baby, how are you doing new mama?" Mama Nat asks me taking a step inside the room with Mr.Alessandro behind her. A smile comes across my face happy to see them.
"I'm fine, thank you for coming to check on me." They both come over to hug me.
"Of course what kind of mother would I be if I didn't come check on my daughter."
"Hey Sai, thank you for letting us come and visit." Mr.Alessandro rubs my back before he stands back up and releases me from the hug.
"This is your first grandchild, I am not about to rob you guys your opportunity to see him."
