what if . ｡ bts | discontinued.

mga bakit sa buhay

ano to? listahan ng 'bakit' na alam kong gusto nyong itanong sakin, pero actually hindi nyo naman talaga bet itanong kasi ako lang may sabi nun.

01. BAKIT NIREVISE?

actually, di ko den alam, charot. 

so ito na nga ang tunay na kwento, mga mahaharot. maglalantad na po ako. joke, matagal na ko naglantad. nAglanTad daW? gUrL, u gAe? 

joke mga, sis. di na required malaman kung ano ba talaga ako kasi kahit ako, di ko alam kung tao ba talaga ako o lamang lupa HAHAHAHAHAHA

so ayon nga kasi, I started writing this story in my younger years. as in younger years mga, sis. the beginning of my fanae journey in k-pop industry, ganon. ganon ka younger. last year lang, i reread this own story of mine at may mga part na sobrang na-cringe ako, ewan. kaya from that day forward, this story undergoes to a (never ending) revision. 

so basically, ang rason ay dahil lang na-cringe ako. yun na yun.

02. BAKIT DI NA MATAPOS-TAPOS YUNG KWENTO?

tinatamad po ako mag-update eh, char. kasi nga under revision pa anoba

03. BAKIT ANG TAGAL I-REVISE?

pake mo? de joke lang, ang bastos ko. wala akong manners.

ito na po, mag-eexplain na po ako. alam kong wala kayong pake kung mag-eexplain ako pero itutuloy ko pa din to kasi wala din akong pake kung wala kayong pake. charot lang, sis.

when the revision for this story started, i was actually in the middle of enjoying my life in kcom. if you guys don't know what kcom is, don't worry cuz i'll be releasing a story abt that place where my world revolved last year (nagpo-promote ako, oo. obvious naman diba?) sa sobrang pag-eenjoy ko, tabunan na nun yung author at fangirl duties ko. well, hindi naman sa totally natabunan, pero nagkaroon ng kahati sa oras ko tong kwento na to, hehe. kaya, ayon po.

04. BAKIT DI NA LANG MAG-UPDATE NG MAG-UPDATE PARA TAPOS NA? AKALA KO BA HANGGANG BOOK 3 TO?

bakit ba atat ka, ha? sabing di pa tapos magrevise eh. 

05. EH BAKIT BA KASI NAPAKATAGAL HA? DI PA SABIHIN YUNG TOTOO EH, PARANG TANGA LANG

eh bakit parang galet kayo, ha? de charness lang. ganto po kasi yan actually. wag po kayo magalit ha, kasi walang rason para dun. 

those days when i started writing this, i was really into bangtan pa. as in, i stan them so hard beyond stanning other kpop groups as well, esp wanna one, exo and seventeen. so yung feels like kilig habang sinusulat ko to, nandun pa den. pero after some moments na di pagpansin sakin ng crush ko, i began to stan w1 and svt harder and better than i stan bts. much more later, when w1 disbanded, i started to stan svt even better, or somehow, the best; thinking that i won't let it to lose them like how i lose wanna one (this is sad, ya know). from that day, and to every day that the Almighty one in heaven makes, i focused to svt than bts. and then i started losing interest with bts.

i stopped revising for months, for i don't know where am i going pull the genuine emotions to build the story. 

i felt no kilig. i felt no joy. i felt no emotions at all.

i tried to write an svt fanfic for i thought, i was just experiencing anxiety due to past events that happened to me that time. 

but i smiled. i felt every emotions i should feel throughout writing that story.

after realizing i wasn't able to continued writing this story again like how it used to be, my frustrations blows and anxiety came to its worst.

after having those conflicts, i thought of something to heal me; when i suddenly thought of every inspirations and motivations i built in my mind from the very beginning of my author journey. and with that, my inner me heal. my stories continued running, as well as i in this journey of mine.

madrama ba masyado? haha, i actually just wanna share my own stories in the path i took, cause those made me stronger and even a better person. that was one of those life changing events that happened in this journey of mine. 

frustrations, anxiety and failures weren't barriers in my path, yet they were weapons to turn me into a better version of myself.

again, this has been Luna, but in 2.0 version. please look forward for the 2.0 version of this story as well!