Hurricane (Disaster Series #1)

Kabanata 1

Relationship

"Why don't you give it a try, Cara?" Pangungulit na naman sa akin ni Andy habang hindi pa nag-uumpisa ang klase.

"I don't know him."

I gave her an uninterested smile and continued writing the math formula that I've been trying to memorize down my notebook.

"Kaya nga kikilalanin!" She rolled her eyes at me.

Napabuntong-hininga ako sa pagiging makulit niya at binitawan ang hawak na ballpen 'tsaka sumulyap sa banda kung saan nakaupo ang lalaking tinutukoy niya.

Nagkatagpo ang mga mata namin ni Wyatt, 'yong transferee ngayong school year na may gusto raw sa akin ayon sa iginigiit ng kaibigan kong si Andy.

I stared at Wyatt for how many boring minutes until he looked away. The way his ears turned red was very visible.

Napakunot ang noo ko dahil do'n at ibinalik ang tingin kay Andy na bahagyang kinukurot na ang tagiliran ko.

"Kita mo na? May gusto nga 'yan sa 'yo!"

Her eyes were dreamy when she said that. Well, I can't deny the fact that Wyatt is good-looking. Pinagkaguluhan agad ng Senior Highschool Department no'ng nag-transfer. Wyatt is mestizo and has that boyish looks that most girls like.

Hindi pa kasi ako nagkaka-boyfriend hanggang sa nag-Senior Highschool na ako. When she asked me if I ever had a boyfriend and I told her no, she looked at me like I'm the most strangest creature she has ever seen.

And that's when she started pairing me to a few boys in our campus. Minsan, napapailing na lang ako at hinahayaan na siya sa trip niya sa buhay.

This boyfriend-girlfriend thing seems like a trend nowadays. At tuwing tinatanong ako kung bakit wala ako no'n, napapatanong na lang din ako sa sarili ko, kailangan ba talagang meron?

"Come on, Cara! Just get a little taste of love." She poked my right cheek.

"You don't find love at sixteen, Andy." I chuckled.

Hindi makapaniwalang nakatingin siya sa akin at napailing-iling. Hindi ko na pinansin pa ang tingin niyang 'yon at kinuha ulit ang ballpen at nagsimulang isulat ang mahahabang formula sa Calculus.

I just don't believe people my age saying they already found love. To say it's love, is such a heavy word.

And heck, is there even love? Does the heart really feel it? What if it really doesn't? Isn't it our brain, the central command of everything?

Then it only means that it's the brain, telling us how we feel. The heart doesn't have to do anything with those feelings. It's just our mind, manipulating everything.

And I don't want to try to know if the heart really has anything to do with love. Not right now. I've witnessed how this so-called myth of love ruined my family.

Mom fell in love with another man because Dad wasn't always around. She fell in love with a man who's younger than Dad. It ruined Mom and Dad's marriage causing them to separate and for me to suffer alone.

See? Isn't it the brain telling them to separate? If Mom really loves Dad, her her heart could've chosen him, but she let go anyway, she let go because Dad doesn't have time for her anymore.

Because it was the mind deciding how she feels, it changed. If it was the heart? It could have been constant, it could have never been ruined, it could have been strong, and it could have never been fazed.

I was then torn between the two of them and it just hurts me that I have to choose who to be with.

No'ng pinapili ako ni Dad kung kanino sasama, kung sa kanya ba o kay Mom, I didn't choose any of them. I lived with my Tita instead. While they both went abroad separate ways, leaving me without a care.