If I Die... (Final Ending to Deadly in Love)

Chapter 16

Chapter song: Seen It All Before by BMTH
(Jason's pov)
"I'm gonna make them suffer more than ever"
I told Twist. He's my favorite gang member, mostly because he's known Justin for a while. Justin will pay for everything.
"What we gon do?"
Twist lit a blunt.
"We're gonna fuck up their marriage"
I stomped out my cigarette and grabbed my phone.
"How?"
Twist blew out a cloud of smoke.
"Give me the bitch"
I ordered, talking about Justin's ex.
"Jasey!"
Stephanie ran up to me and hugged me. She's so fucking annoying.
"Snap a few pictures"
I pushed her off and handed my phone to Twist. He nodded, then I grabbed Stephanie and kissed her. I was standing in a position that didn't give away my identity. As long as the picture looked like I was Justin, then I'm good. I grabbed Stephanie's ass and kissed her harder. She kissed back, unaware that our picture was taken. I kissed her neck and grasped her waist, making sure that her face was in the picture. I even took her shirt off and picked her up.
"Ok, how many you got, Twist?"
I dropped her on the floor to walk back over to Twist.
"4"
Twist handed my phone back and lit another blunt. I sent all 4 pictures to Christie then set my phone on the table.
"His bitch will believe anything. It's funny"
I chuckled as I lit a blunt too. We've been spying on Justin and Christie for about a year now. I know about Christie's secrets. I know she's quick to believe anything. And I know about Justin. I know his secrets too. I know enough about them to break them apart. If I can get each of them alone, I'll be able to move on with the plan. First, turn them against each other. Second, get each of them alone. Third, kill them. Plus, I'd like to fuck his bitch. We all do.
(Christie's pov)
Justin still hasn't returned. This is all my fault. I fucking hate myself. My phone buzzed, and I saw that there were 4 pictures sent to my phone by Stephanie. I unlocked it to see Justin's ex and....Justin? Is he kissing her? I swiped through all 4 pictures, and my heart dropped. How did she get these pictures? I don't know, but I don't care. Justin cheated on me. I began to cry. I knew it. I knew that bitch was here for a reason. I searched the apartment for something besides my nails. I found another lighter. I'm gonna be finding these everywhere now that Justin's decided to do drugs again. I clicked it on and stared at the flame. I held it under my wrist, not touching my skin. I kept it there until I couldn't bear the pain anymore. My wrist was red, swollen, and sensitive. It hurt when I touched it, so I bandaged it up to avoid as much pain as possible. Justin cheated on me. Ugh! I'm so upset at everything, but mostly myself. I wasn't pretty enough. I wasn't skinny enough for Justin. I hid the lighter in my pocket and used the last of the banana for Drew to eat. If Justin doesn't get food, then I'm gonna get it myself. I don't care if anything bad will happen. I rocked Drew in my arms and kissed his cheek.
"You're gonna be ok. I'm so sorry for everything"
I let a tear slip out of my eye. If anyone is gonna take Drew, then they can take me with them. I will lay down my life for Drew. I put in way too much work and tolerated way too much pain to let him go this easy. I'm gonna leave this place. Maybe I should just stay with Stacy or someone. The door opened, and Justin walked in. He had groceries, but I could tell that he's been doing drugs again. His scent smelled of smoke. I sighed and rolled my eyes before setting Drew back in his crib.
"I got food, babe"
He set the food on the kitchen counter. I sighed in disgust. I am not the only one he's called "babe"
"Hey, are you ok, baby?"
Justin held my waist from behind.
"Don't"
I pushed him away and hugged myself.
"Christie...I'm sorry for the way I acted this morning"
He apologized guiltily.
"Explain this"
I handed him my phone. He took it and swiped through the pictures. His eyes widened.
"That's not me"
Justin looked at me in desperation.
"Bullshit"
I muttered angrily.
"Christie, I swear that's not me...It's my brother-"
"Why the hell would your brother be with your fucking ex?!"
I grew so angry that I shouted.
"You know that I'll never cheat on you! Christie, that's not me!"
Justin raised his voice.
"Whatever, I'm leaving"
I sighed and walked away.
"Christie, why would I cheat on you?!"
Justin followed me. I just ignored him.
"Give me one good reason why I would cheat on you, Christie?!"
Justin pulled me back and stood me in front of him.
"Tell me!-"
"Cos I'm not good enough!!"
I shouted into a cry. We were both still and quiet.
"Christie...you know that I have a twin brother. TWIN brother, which means we look alike. You can only tell the difference from the front. And if he wasn't wearing a jacket, you would see that he has both sleeves done and tattoos on the back of his neck"
Justin reasoned. Once again, I felt stupid. I guess he's got a point. They do look alike. I sniffled and sat down.
"I'm so sorry for acting that way, baby"
He hugged me. I believed him, but another part of me told me that he was lying.
"I'm tired of this, Justin"
I cried in his embrace.
"I know. It's gonna end soon"
He held me closer.
"Why us?"
I sobbed and hugged him tight.
"I don't know..."
He stroked my hair.
"...this really can't go on, babygirl"
Justin rolled down my sleeves, scanning my wrists.
"I'm sorry"
I apologized for something that I couldn't stop.
"What is this? Where'd you get another lighter?"
He studied my wrists.
"I said I'm sorry"
I sniffled and pulled my arms away from him.
"Christie, ugh, this is pissing me off"
He sighed frustratedly.
"I thought you were done with drugs"
I shot back weakly.
"But I'm not hating on myself, Christie"
He argued.
"Then why are you doing it?"
I wiped my eyes.
"...I'm really stressed out. Christie, this isn't about me. It's about you. You're gonna seriously hurt yourself if you don't stop"
Justin tucked my hair behind my ear. I just untucked it and narrowed my eyes.
"Get ready for bed, beautiful. I'll feed Drew"
He offered. I nodded and went take a shower. I literally felt numb. I was dying on the inside, but emotionless on the outside. I spotted one of Justin's shaving razors in the shower. I'm pretty sure he forgot to hide it from me, but I held it against my wrist and swiped it, causing blood to drip out. The burns probably hurt the most, but every time I feel the pain, I just want more. I bandaged my wrists up and dressed myself. Justin was putting Drew to sleep when I walked out. He motioned me to get in bed, so I did. Justin went to take a shower as I shut my eyes. How do I know he's telling the truth? Ugh, I don't even know anymore. Justin's brother seems to be right about everything so far. I mean, he's right that I'm worthless. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. If Justin could read my mind, he'd probably be scarred for life.
"Are you asleep yet, bae?"
Justin pulled me close to him when he laid next to me. I didn't answer. I don't wanna talk to him anymore. I just wanna sleep. He let out an exhausted breath and spooned me.
"...I know you're still awake, baby"
He whispered. I made sure my back was still away from him and let him deal with the silence, because I'm going to sleep.

(A/N: Justin was adorable on Ellen today😍 Next post, Sunday☀️)

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