If I Die... (Final Ending to Deadly in Love)

Chapter 13

Chapter song: Drown in it by Chris Brown feat. R. Kelly
(Christie's pov)
I comforted Justin a little bit longer before we eventually went back inside, because it was too dangerous and cold outside. He talked with his friends as Stacy, Brie, and Kayla comforted me. I guess it's understandable on why Justin killed the guy. I mean, it was for Drew's life. Don't worry about my life. I don't care about it anymore. Speaking of what happened, the guys took the body out and hid it somewhere. I don't know how they managed to get away with murder so easily back then. I still can't believe Justin killed someone, stabbed him right in the throat. Blood was stained on the walls and couch, so the guys offered to clean it up. In a way, I'm mad at Justin, because he still committed murder. It's gonna take a while before I get that image out of my head.
"You can have your couch back, Za. I don't think it made a difference"
Justin spoke regretfully.
"Oh, ok. See you tomorrow then"
Wait, we're leaving? I checked the time. 7pm. Oh, damn, time goes by fast. The girls said goodbye to Drew and me, then Justin led me back to our apartment.
"It's safe now, baby"
Justin opened the door for me.
"Can you feed him for me? I need to take a shower"
I handed Drew to Justin.
"Yea"
He took the baby and sat him in his baby chair. I got the shower ready and got in. Lately, Justin and I have been having issues. We barely have any time together anymore. I know most of it is because of Justin's brother, but why is Justin always having a "private meeting" with the guys? I just want us to be ok again. I can't take myself anymore. I hate every inch of my body, and I feel so worthless. I've gotten 3 texts from Stephanie telling me that Justin doesn't love me, or that I'm fat and ugly. Words hurt, you know? I haven't told Justin, because he's been busy with other stuff. It's obviously more important than me. I feel so worthless. Justin should just go back to Stephanie. She's way better than I'll ever be. I stepped out of the shower and wrapped the towel around myself. I want something, something to let out my pain. I know I shouldn't, but I want it. I looked in the drawers, nothing. Cabinets, nothing. There has to be something sharp in here. I sighed defeatedly and walked out. I was instantly greeted by a disappointed Justin.
"Looking for these?"
He held out a few shaving razors. I stood speechless, my jaw dropped slightly in sorrow.
"Justi-"
"I knew you would try to do this. I knew it. Christie, what did I do? You were doing so good"
Justin dropped the razors on the floor and pulled me close.
"I-It's...ugh, I don't know. Justin, I'm sorry"
My eyes watered.
"Don't do this. Don't cut. Don't cut yourself. I will check, Christie. Don't try to get away with it"
His fingers gently dug into my waist, signaling he was distressed.
"Ok"
I won't cut...but he never said not to hurt myself. Self harm comes in many ways, and it's not just cutting. I know it's not fair, but it's what I need.
"Promise me"
He pressed our bodies closer.
"I promise"
I spoke honestly. Justin kissed me warmly and pulled me on the couch bed.
"Wait, Drew is-"
"He's asleep"
Justin tugged my towel off and started to strip down. I was laid down and kissed all over by Justin's soft lips. He sucked his fingers then rubbed my area viciously while I started to feel the intense pleasure.
"Mmm-I can't wait to taste you, baby"
He whispered seductively. The thought of Justin's tongue made shivers occur all over my body. He smirked when he saw me shudder a bit. I moaned desperately when Justin stopped rubbing me. I quickly desired something else. I didn't hesitate to pull his boxers off and grab hold of him.
"You're sneaky, babe"
Justin smirked and buried his fingers in my still-wet hair. I giggled and shoved his whole length in my mouth. He groaned as I bobbed my head to please him.
"Fucking hell, babygirl, keep going"
Justin groaned and pulled my hair as he got closer. I went deeper and faster until his sweetness released in my mouth. I coughed a bit from how deep I sucked him.
"Damn, bae"
He chuckled, causing me to blush.
"My turn..again"
He quickly laid me down and opened my legs as he knelt in front of my exposed area. His breath made me shudder again and whimper in desperateness. Soon enough, I felt his fingers start to touch me. I could see how how concerned he was for me when he glanced in my eyes. He touched me, played with my area with lust, but I could also see concentration and seriousness in his expression. It was like he was angry yet lustful. I bit my lip nervously. Justin spit at my area and started rubbing me again, causing me to gasp. Shit, is he ok? I'm not saying I don't like this, because I love the pleasure. I moaned and squirmed from the pleasure. Justin pulled my legs, so that they were over his shoulders. Before I could gasp at his quickness, Justin smashed his mouth against my area, his hands holding my hips to keep me from arching my back or squirming too much. I gotta say that I love how rough he's being. His tongue started to flick against my area. I moaned and tugged his hair. He made all sorts of patterns with his tongue, making me squirm in pleasure. He gripped me tighter and pressed me closer to him.
"Justin! Oh shit! How do you do this?! Fuck!"
I screamed but instantly quieted down, because Drew was asleep. He was pleasing me so good that my legs were shaking, and I curled my toes. I released in his mouth, and he sucked and licked me clean. I was panting with amazement. Justin seemed stressed and upset. It kind of scared me, but I know that he'll never hurt me. He shoved his fingers inside me, instantly holding my hips down to keep me from arching my back. Damn, I like this. Justin fingered my rapidly and deeply, still holding my hips to the bed.
"Oh OH JUSTIN!"
I accidentally screamed then released again. He didn't stop. As a matter of fact, he fingered faster, making me squirt all over his face.
"Sorryyyy"
I moaned and panted.
"Fucking shit, I love you, baby"
Justin licked his lips and wiped his face. He put on a condom and shoved himself inside me.
"Fuck, Justin. Mmmm-I want more"
I moaned and touched myself.
"Don't do that"
He pinned me down and started to bang against me.
"J-ust-mmmm!"
I screamed but was interrupted by him kissing me. He felt so good as he slid in and out of me. The pleasure was so intense that I began to close my legs. Justin threw them over his shoulder and continued pinning me down. He had me helpless and feeling incredible. I moaned as I let go of my juices. Good thing he was still kissing me, or I would've screamed again. We were both out of breath, but Justin still didn't get enough. He grabbed my waist and sat me on his face. What's happening with him? He's enjoying me way more than usual. Damn, I wouldn't be surprised if I couldn't release anymore. I felt Justin's tongue swirl around me, making me moan.
"Justin! Fuuuck!"
A scream slipped out. His tongue got my closer to my release, and I was about to move away from him before he held my down securely. I came on him in a loud scream. Shit, I need to stop screaming. I could hear him slurping me clean. Justin moved me off of his face and licked his lips.
"mmmm-I could do that all day"
He handed me his shirt and my panties.
"That was amazing"
I moaned.
"I think we both needed that"
He chuckled and put on his boxers.
"Yea"
I fixed my hair.
"Let's get to bed, beautiful"
Justin wrapped me up safely as we pulled the covers over us.
(Sorry for the short chapter. I wanted to make it a little dirty😉)