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Stay Alive

I noticed a lot here recently, just on this platform alone, that a lot of people are struggling and thinking about suicide and self harm, and I'm genuinely worried for all of them.

Guys, I fucking love you and I know there are other people out there who do as well. I don't know if you particularly are struggling or if someone you know is, but please don't kill yourself. Please don't hurt yourself. The world is a scary place right now and it'll be even scarier without you. It's scary as fuck just hearing you say those words. So please, don't die.

I don't know your reasons, and I don't know how to talk you out of it. I don't know how to help you or if you even want help. But please don't leave us. We want you. We NEED you. We love you. I literally cry every time I see your threats and pleas for help. I cry and worry even more when you don't post or respond anymore. And I know I'm not the only one.

Please, if there's ever anything I can do for you, please let me know. You can PM me and rant and I'll offer my love and assistance, and I know for a fact millions of people on this platform and in real life would do the same. Dying isn't worth it. Not for you, not for us. Please listen to our words and live your life. I know the virus isn't the only thing that's scary. It's depression, anxiety, dysphoria, homophobia, transphobia, horrible governments, bad living situations, abusive friends and family, lack of food and medical needs, death of a loved one, police brutality, and so much more.

People are suffering, and I want to do what I can to make things a little more bearable for you. Just, please don't die. I really hope my words can reach you. Please give yourself a chance. If not for yourself, than for the people you love and the people who keep telling you to live on. For the betterment of yourself and the world. Please please please please PLEASE!

I know it's hard. I know it's terrifying. I know everything's fucked up and you just want to give up on yourself and end it all because the suffering is only getting worse, the pain is only getting worse and you wish you weren't alive because you wouldn't have to endure the pain anymore and nobody else would give a damn if you were gone.

But your wrong. If you die, it only keeps going downhill. It gets even more worse than you could imagine. The world is becoming more cold and empty quicker than any of us could imagine. And your death, your single one in a million death that you don't think matters, suddenly makes everything fall apart a lot faster.

I know I'm not very good at putting things into words. I know I'm not that great at helping and being able to understand your situation. But I don't want you to go. And if there's someone who tells you that you don't deserve to live, then they're wrong.

YOU get to decide what you're worth. I'm just here to try and comfort you. I'm here to convince you that you deserve to live and that you belong here. I know I can't stop you or force you to believe in something you don't. But I want you to know that you're loved and you're needed and you DO have a purpose and a beautiful life of your own waiting ahead.

I'm not telling you to get better of to fix yourself. I know from experience that's not how it works and that saying those things doesn't do shit. I just want you to hang on. I'll be here for you to help you climb out of this shithole. We'll see each other on the other side of whatever this world has come to. Just promise me you won't give up.

Do you really believe no one will care if you're gone? That we'll be better off without you? That we'll just forget you?

I won't. I'll cry, I'll scream, I'll fight, I'll live to tell your story. I'll mourn for you. If your voice couldn't be heard while you were alive, I'll make sure they hear every last thing you ever said since the day you were born. I'll make them regret what they did to you.

But I'd rather you live and tell them how you feel yourself.

I'd rather you live than die.

I don't want to lose you.

I might not know you, but I don't want you to go.

So please, please stay alive.