Original Stories

Listening

I always feel like no one is listening to me.

I know it's not your fault if you aren't able to pay attention.

But it's the people around me who seem not to notice anything.

Or maybe I've just gotten better at hiding my emotions.

And now that I'm being forced to watch my brother, I can't cry in the safety of my own room.

Legit, my dad USED to tell me I could stay in my room as long as I kept an ear out. But for some reason after my mom started letting me do that, he just MAKES me leave my room and he fucking gets mad at me when I have something to say about what he's FORCING me to do.

And I have to deal with my crazy ass grandmother. I can't fucking cry in front of her and I don't want to fucking talk to her or hear her voice right now, and I'm NOT trying to put up with telling her to leave me alone because she won't or she's gonna start assuming I'm fucking depressed and mental like she ALWAYS does.

I can't really explain my grandmother in detail, but all you need to know is she's fucking crazy and she doesn't know it and we can't fucking tell her anything and SHE'S the real reason I can't come out at home or talk about my issues if I even WANTED to and every situation you could try to come up with to make things better for me is immediately a lose-lose situation because I can think of at least 20 fucking reasons why it won't work. I'm not exaggerating.