Twdg | Luke and Nick | idk who to love...

Tell me the...

"Oh look! Ashley's here!"

Those words tampered in my head and along with the added snarl, fuelled my anger to the point where I had to tie my hands into each other to stop myself from literally throttling her.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" I spat, because I refused to control my mouth. I watched as tiny droplets of water fell from my mouth, gently hitting the floor. Quite honestly, that was as 'gentle' as I was gonna get.

"Don't you fucking swear at me! I don't know what bullshit stories your dad's been telling you, but I'm still your mother and that means you have to respect me too!"

"Mother?! Who the hell are you kidding? You cheated on Dad and left him with nothing! Nothing! Everything I used to own just... Gone... And all because of YOU." My throat suddenly felt dry and parched from the vile taste thickening in my mouth.

My mom just stood there, her strong nothing-can-hurt-me facade seemingly faded. She just stood there, mouth open wide. I couldn't tell if it was from shock or confusion. Probably neither.

"You ain't my mother, and you never will be." I spat, satisfied for adding insult to injury. I then shoved out of the way, and lunged myself towards Dad, pulling him into a hug. I could feel him shaking like mad, presumably from anger. I smiled in my head, content with mom's displeasure at my resentment.

"Then who the hell is? That little whore that thinks light shines out of your arse?!" She snarled, obviously referring to Carly.

"HEY!" She squealed. She had been pretty quiet up till now, just observing the scene. But she doesn't take anybody's shit, especially not from someone Dad or I feel so disguised about.

"You heard me." She smirked, nodding her head. Her hair (which was her only feministic feature) bounced up and down as she nodded.

"May I remind you that you were the one cheated on Lee? And I'm not the one who has been supposedly tracking their ex down. So stop contradicting yourself, it's bullshit."

"You wanna know what's really bullshit? The fact that you're sticking up for this piece of shit! I bet he fed you lies, tried to make you feel sorry for him --- "

"Like you probably did for that guy you cheated on me with!" Dad's voice is edged with anger and hurt. I've seen him hurt, but never angry, and never so upset that he was seemingly on the brink of tears. My dad's a though guy, he ain't one to cry. Carly's already rubbing his shoulder in an attempt to calm him down.

"You just some random bastard sleep with you, Lily! How do you think that made me feel? He didn't even have a name!" I can literally see the pools of tears beginning to form in his eyes. Every time I look up at Dad, its just another reason to add ignition to the burning rage deep inside me.

"He was lonely! He lost all his belongings, this car both of his kids, his wife! He needed me, and I needed him." I can't believe I'm hearing this. Even though it all happened, that there was proof, I still can't get my head around the fact that mom still isn't sorry, she still thinks she's right.

And it's then when I realize that I'm truly crying, that the tears are not just falling one by one, but a literal never-ending stream, as if it's never going to stop, really. It hurts, hurts a lot. I thought after all this time, she'd see sense. A box of tissues was thrust into my face and I made no hesitation to grab them, shoving them under my eyes. I feel an arm snaking around my shoulder. It's Carly's and I allow her to pull me in for a hug.

"No, don't bullshit me. You were the one who was lonely. You couldn't handle the fact that I didn't want to go travelling, and you knew I had to stay because of my job, you knew that. And don't you bullshit me either saying that you were lonely! You spent most days working at that army base. It was me who had to come home to an empty house everyday, no wife, no mother for Ashley..."