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Chapter 53

He looks at me with big eyes and an unsure expression. "I never thought you would come." He tells me with a low voice, his eyes carefully meeting mine. Now I saw hope. He wrote that letter with his heart and he never dared to wish I would have come even when he opened up his heart to me.

"I liked your letter." I tell him calmly with a small smile. He looks at me before asking me inside, his mouth curved in a small grin from my respond. It does means a lot to him and it even makes my legs going weak at the moment.

I wanted to see it with my own eyes if he finally has made up his mind about his whole life, and I truly think he knows now. He knows what he needs to do to make himself happy again. To feel alive like a normal human being. Not screwing around, working and sleeping without even letting  yourself feel something. I'm just concerned about his happiness.

I follow him in the hallway where he hesitated for a second and then he made his way up the stairs. "Uhu where are you going?" I question him, not sure what his plans were.

He smiles cocky while eyeing me closely. "I thought you would prefer another room to talk because of what had happened?" He raises his eyebrows while awaiting my answer. "Yes, of course." I tell him quickly a little ashamed about forgetting that terrible evening. We seated ourselves on the couch in his large study. Everywhere I looked where boxes stacked on top of eachother. "Are you going to redecorate the room?" I question him with a curiously. "No, I'm actually selling the house. I want a new place to make new and and most of all good memories." He informs me on a serious tone. Nodding in understanding a flattened my dress. Feeling his gaze on me I look up. His penetrating gaze roamed all over my body, his eyes flicker with approval. I clear my throat and cross my legs professionally.

"You look beautiful." He admits with a lustful expression. I swallow hard, feeling my body react under his piercing gaze. "You look handsome as well." I respond friendly. It wasn't a lie though. I could devour him right now, but someone needs to keep his mind together. This conversation is important.

"I was born like this, what can I say?" He shrugs, giving me a cheepish smile. A small laughter escaped my throat. "Jason, don't make jokes now. I came here to talk." I inform him a little impatient, my nerves taking the upper hand. "I know and we will. You seem so tensed, thought you might like my sense of humor? Besides I wanted to see you smile." He admits calmly with a slight hint of amusement in his eyes.

"I like your humor." I admit softly with a small grin. I do like all his jokes. God, we had so much fun when I got him all relaxed. Jason changed into a whole different person when we were together. I'm a little eager to know if he can be that person again. Eitherway, I will take him like he is. The grumpy, cold, hard man he sometimes becomes is so much harder to understand, but I think in time I'll figure out what he needs when he feels the need to keep his distance from me. For now I want to wait a little longer, letting him suffer a little before he can take me in this room in every way possible.

"What do you want to talk about?" Jason seats himself in a more comfortable position. "Did you mean every word you've said in your letter?" I questioned him on a serious tone. Jason was already very serious now. I really appreciated that because he knows I need to hear it coming out of his mouth. "Yes, every word." He informs me with his arms crossed, his eyes never leaving mine. I nod and don't know what to ask him right away so I kept silent for a while. "I'm so sorry for everything I did that made you unhappy, because I won't let that happen ever again. I'm not perfect, but I can give you me if you let me inside your mind and heart. You've my soul already. If you aren't here I feel death inside. You're the light inside of me and I'll do anything in my power to keep you safe and happy with me. We will have our ups and downs for sure, but what we have is real. It can't be written in a book. The choices we make would defintely change, but the end will always stay the same. We will end up together one way or another. I'll fight for you, breath and live for you. I'm in love with you Rose." He confesses to me and I whimper in shock.

He gently takes my hand in his, rubbing soothing circles on my knuckles. "I've missed your little hands, your warmth." He smiles warmly, his eyes just reflecting how he feels right now. Hope, he wishes to be with me. "I want you by my side Rose." He adds softly, brushing his palm against my cheek, his other hand still entwined with mine. I look with big eyes at him, feeling his warmth radiating from his small touch. "I'm in love with you too Jason." I admit to him, feeling my cheeks flush.

He hovers his lips above mine, leaning close. Giving me the approval the take the first step. Normally he takes what he wants, but this small gesture meant so much to me. I straddle him on the couch, the hard muscles of his stomach brushes against my body. The longing in his eyes was to much my body and mind could bare. I lean in, crashing my lips on his. We were always meant for each other even if it took both of us time to figure that out. My whole world had been turned upside down when he came walking into my life, but at the end he fixed me. He gave me a goal again. Because of him I feel wanted and loved again and I will tresure these moments forever.

I moan against his lips, as his hands trailes over my body, lifting me up from his lap. Gently he undresses me until I was naked. "Fucking perfection." He grunted before leading me back to the couch. While he slowly undressed himself, I felt my arousal dripping from my sex. He has such a strong, sexy body. I was so ready for him. I've missed him so much. "I'm going to pleasure you until you beg me to fuck you baby." He informs me with a playful smirk on his face. "What are you waiting for then?" I lick my lips seductively, it elicited a grunt from him.

"I love it when you're bossy." He tells me on a seductive tone, hovering above me. Then his mouth leaves gentle wet kisses on my chest, lips and then my nipples. He sucks them inside his mouth, gently biting in them, leaving me in flames, caged between his body and the couch. The only thing I can do right now is to stay

under his mercy, being his prisoner. I don't even care where he takes me, if it always leads to these moments.