Euphoria

7. Chasing cars

Sorry it's been forever :(

I was listening to the song when I did this so...

I took that picture when I went to New York last year

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Sometimes I wonder.

I wonder about lots of things. I wonder about the planets and people. Things and feelings.

I wonder what I'm like from someone else's point of view. I wonder why my dad did what he is to me. I wonder why mom never stopped him even after she saw him hit me.

I wonder why my own sister left me after she promised she wouldn't. I wonder why I thought I loved someone who was with someone else.

I wonder why it still hurts a little when he brings her out with us all the time.

2 years and she's still around. She hasn't changed at all.

"Liam its a shame you've been gone so long me and Zayn were planning on moving in together, do you think you could help?"

"Oh liam the other night me and zayn went on a date and.."

"Oh liam the other night we were about to have sex but then zayn..."

As if I want to hear. I wonder why she talks to me like this when everyone isn't paying attention. I wonder why I care?

Why should I care?

I wonder...

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Liam's been out of the center for 3 weeks now. Nothing's really changed. He hangs out with niall a lot because otherwise zayn would invite Perrie and well.. You know how that goes.

Louis and Harry seem to be working on things. They're not together yet but liam can see it happening soon.

He's been a little stressed lately so he decided to go for a walk.

So here he is. Walking down the street going wherever his feet take him. Breeze messing his hair up slightly. The sun is setting and it looks beautiful. It's calming.

He remembers that one time he ended up in that field and thought about living somewhere like there. Or something like that. He remembers laying in the field with zayn-

He shouldn't think about him.. It's wrong. He has someone- I have no one.

Liam crosses the street and he's at a park. No one in sight. There's a playground and then a field. The sun is setting and it looks beautiful. Blues and purples and pinks mixed together.

He's standing in the field now. Looking up. The sun has set and the stars are starting to come out. It's beautiful and blue and he feels happy.

He's sitting now and the sky looks magnificent. It's a mixture of purple and blue and the stars are fully out. Moon on display as well. He feels happy and so he smiles.

He's laying down now and he closes his eyes. He thinks about everything.

He feels content and happy and calm. Laying there listening to the cars driving by. Feeling the breeze. Feeling the earth underneath him. The grass and dirt.

His eyes are open now and he feels serene. It's like he's suddenly had an epiphany.

He would be happy and he would forget about the world around him and do what he wants for happiness.

He'd forget all the bad in the past. Forget about dad and all the things that's happened. He would spend time with his boys. He would take time to mend his heart. Fix throttle bits of him that have been chipped off.

He feels the breeze and hears the cars and smells the grass.

Everything in this moment just feels right.

His eyes are open now and the stars looks absolutely beautiful ..

But not as beautiful as zayn's eyes..

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