All for you

Chapter 20

Heros POV

A father

I Hero Fiennes Tiffin was going to be a father. A little boy or girl I would get to call my own and love with my whole heart for the rest of my days. Not only that, but the woman I once deemed to be the love of my life was carrying our baby. Tho I wasn't so sure she held that title anymore.

The moment I saw her again, the realisation that she was safe took complete control of my mind. As soon as my arms looped around her shoulders, the bulge so evidently prominent now between the two of us was practically non-existent. The clear figure change she was stunningly sporting didn't faze me for even a millisecond. All I cared about, all that was going through my mind during the moments I saw her in one piece, was the fact that the woman who had torn my heart in half was safe.

The moment I was alerted that it wasn't just the two of us attached in the embrace, my entire body seemed to stop. Her hand rested on a baby bump, not all that big but noticeable as a man lucky enough to know her body so well.

The slap she gave me after my words didn't even seem to sting. With my anger raging to new heights, all of the burden I was absorbing remained mental with the idea of a secret kept for so long leaving me solemnly in the dark. I knew the baby she was carrying was mine, I remembered the times when the concept of protection didn't even enter my mind, but the point of this entire situation was that she had stolen precious time from me.

By now, she most definitely would have experienced our little ones first scan, the first time their perfect heartbeat echoed through the room, and more than likely, the first kicks would have been pressed against her bump as well as the doctor alerting her of the gender of my child that would be arriving in only a few months time.

The pain at the realisation hit me in the gullet like a lightning bolt. For the first day after, I mopped around the guest room Anna had allowed me to stay in since hotels were pretty much boarded up with infections at the highest rate.

Most of the time, I sat staring up at the ceiling considering the future I would soon be living out. A baby, an actual living human would be placed in my hands and labelled as my own. Every tear, every smile, every laugh, all of it would be mine to experience. For as long as I can remember, the concept of a family had been my ultimate dream with the second I met the woman carrying my first baby only amplifying that feeling.

I was unprepared, yes.

Young, yes.

Inexperienced, yes.

But one thing I would be was the best father possible.

The next morning, it took me no time at all to return the missed calls from my mum as I lay back against the sheets which had practically stuck to my body with the California heat.

"My sweet boy, we were so worried" she spoke after two rings not even allowing me time to speak.

"Hey mum, sorry I've been a bit distracted but I'm safe." I said not wanting to hit her with the full details straight away.

"And Jo? How is she hunny? Is she out of the hospital yet because if we need to come down we will b-"

"She's fine" I swiftly interrupted wanting to put an abrupt end to the worry I knew the woman on the other line was sinking in.

"Oh, I'm so happy to hear that sweetie. Are the two of you at her apartment now or still at the hospital" she asked with her voice clearly picking up.

"She's at her apartment with Hallie and Katherine but I stayed at Anna's last night"

"Why?" She wondered with confusion clearly striking her in the face.

"Everything's so fucking messed up mum," I said after gasping letting all the brewing tears fall down my face like a bloody newborn baby. Ironic.

"Oh hunny what happened?"

"She fucking lied to me mum. I came back and I saw her in the apartment and my head was all fucked over but I looked down an-"

"Breath baby breathe," she said over the other line intimidating the actions she wanted me to repeat.

"She kept something big from me mum"

With that, the line went completely silent prompting me to continue on my tangent, "and it isn't a fucking little thing either. She had no fucking right to keep that kind of information to herself"

"Tell me what she said sweety, tell me what she said and I can try and help the pair of you. I know my son, and I know you are completely in love with that girl. I'm sure the two of you can sort this out Hero, whatever it may be"

As if flicking a switch, the numbing atmosphere filled with tranquillity was overruled by a woman clearly desperate to help her youngest son.

"I cant even talk about it right now, I fucked up and walked out after we fought and said some shit I shouldn't ha-"

"Hero Beauregard Faulkner Fiennes Tiffin what the fuck did you say? I know I haven't seen Jo as much as you have, but one thing I do know is that young lady loves you with everything she has. I don't know whats happened between you both but you need to man up son. You two love each other so much, its so bloody clear my boy. Please sort this out love, and when you are ready come and talk to me about whatever it is. I'm always here for you, you know that."

After reassuring her that I was going to sort this shit out and promised to call as soon as I was ready to spill the truth, I hastily drew the phone call to an end

"Hero" she spoke placing the device on the mantle as she looked at me straight in the eyes, "Jo has an appointment this afternoon and asked if you want to go"

The thought of seeing the baby I was convinced to be a son had me rushing around my guest room like a maniac. Before my mind could even process the situation, my feet were guiding me into the office as I ignored the protests of the nurse behind me.

The second I saw her laying on the bed with her hands on her bump, a feeling of almighty love rushed over my body. The image of Jo carrying a child wasn't something id failed to imagine before, but seeing it in real life was a whole different experience. Throughout the appointment, Not only did my offsprings little foot make contact with my hand, but I got to see the skin stretching to accommodate our baby. All was amazing except the young doctor who continued to piss me off.

Finally cooling down, the question surrounding the sex had my curiosity brewing like a potion forcing the next few words to leave my mouth.

"What's the sex?" I questioned looking between Jo and the dick

"Would you like to know? I believe you chose not too last time if i-"

"You didn't find out?" I interrupted the prick I didn't give a fuck about as she nodded her head,"why?"

"I understand everything that I've done to you is wrong Hero, I really do now, but I couldn't do something this important without you" she responded having my mind fuzzing around like a washing machine as the true reality of everything with the baby hit me like a train wreck. Yeah, Jo may have chosen not to find out, but she did have a choice in telling me I was about to become someone's daddy.

"Would you guys like to know?" The dick head spoke in the background as my entire body seemed to freeze. The moment I finally snapped back into reality, my feet took control and sprinted straight down towards my car. Stupidly failing to concentrate on the road, I rushed around like a maniac slamming the breaks down the second I reached outside of Anna's door.

Hours seemed to pass with me just thinking. I just couldn't get my head around why she would do this shit. What the fuck did I do for her to hate me?

Knowing there was only one way to get my answers, I took the instructions of manning up from my mother earlier and got in my car.

Running only caused all these problems for us both, and it was finally time for me to stop doing exactly that.