Flatmates// Cake & Mashton

Chapter seven

//once again, this is meanwhile from what happened in the previous chapter//

Luke's pov

One minute I was sleeping, the next minute I find myself on the floor, fucking ouch, how did it happen? I don't fucking know but it hurt like a bitch "Jesus!" I heard Michael say and sit up in his bed looking down at me, I must have woken him up, he let out a chuckle "it's raining dorks" I let out a groan "oh my god, what the fuck happened??" "you fell..if you want, we can swap beds incase that happens again" Michael said and stretched "Jesus Christ" I muttered and got up, rubbing my now pounding head, great start to the day Luke. "I'm a restless sleeper whoops. Did you sleep good last night?" I asked "I did! did you? apart from..well..that.." Michael replied and tried not to laugh, I let out a giggle "good, yeah I did too..can't say I haven't fallen out of a bed before" "clumsy fucker you" Michael said and laughed along "you want to shower before me? I don't mind" he added "I am indeed! aw yeah please if you don't mind. I'm boggin" I said, it's true though, felt like I stank. Michael chuckled "go for it!" he said and got his outfit for the day ready. I jogged into the bathroom and had a shower, I made sure to not take too long, I had my first counselling session today, I wish I was confident enough to tell the boys about it, I know they wouldn't judge me but my mind told me different. When I got out the bathroom, Michael wasn't there. I assume he's gone to the kitchen for breakfast so I started getting ready and soon left for my session, I really hope that it goes okay. But shit, the room was right around a corner so I bumped into someone on the way, someone that had just left the room, I knew they came from that room because it was a secluded hallway and was the only room that was down there.

Calum, I bumped into Calum. Fuck. Safe to say I had a 😶 face "oh..hey" I mumbled at looked at him, it looked like he had been crying, I wish I could just give him a hug. "Oh hi..sorry I was just erm..err.." he said while switching his gaze to the floor, I gave him a reassuring smile "it's okay..you good?" was a stupid question I know, clearly he wasn't but I still felt the need to ask. "Y-yes..fine thank you..sorry am I keeping you?" Calum asked while looking back at me, I opened my mouth to reply but the therapist at the door beat me to it "Luke? come in! I'm Tyler!" ah double fuck. Why did he have to say that so loud and expose me? even though it was already obvious what I was here for "um..I'll..see you later.." I awkwardly said to Calum and walked into the room "sorry hi" I said to my new therapist who I now learnt was called Tyler "o-okay bye then" I heard Calum say before Tyler closed the door "please take a seat! it's good to meet you!" he said in a friendly manner and sat down "it's nice to meet you too" I said as I sat down as well, dread building up inside. Well shit, here we go.

Tyler gave me a smile "so how can I help you Luke?" he asked while maintaining eye contact, "so..I have a boyfriend..but.. it's difficult..we've been distant for a little while and I hoped that me moving here would get him to make more of an effort..but it's like he doesn't care..he doesn't call me, he hasn't bothered asking if I'm settling in or anything.." I admitted, hoping I wasn't sounding petty. "Have you tried being the one to contact him? He might need that reassurance that you miss him too" Tyler said and gave me another smile before continuing " if he gets like this too much maybe the distance will be good! I'm not saying ignore him but I'm not saying give all the effort. He might have to be away from you to realise how much he needs you" I stayed silent for a few seconds, taking in the fresh advice I have just received, he was right, but that didn't make it any easier to hear. I gave out a sigh "yeah I've tried..but he's not giving me much to work with..yeah maybe, I'll try to do that..he promised we would be okay once I moved but I don't think that's a promise he's going to be able to keep." I said, it killed me to say it but I had to stop lying to myself and pretending that everything was okay. "It sounds like you need distractions..what about your flatmates? do you get along with them? they may be good for you" Tyler asked while writing down on his document papers. I nodded "yeah I get along with them pretty well, they are really nice lads" I said, they were, Calum was especially a little gem. "Well that's great!" Tyler exclaimed with a smile "and they all like music like you right? you guys should perform together! talk to them about your relationship, about how you feel. Have you spoken to your parents about this?" he continued, I gave out a chuckle "I mean sure..maybe one day..I'll try to. I'll try to be open about it with them. I've told my mum about it, she thinks I should leave him" I admitted, she wasn't a fan of my relationship at all. "Well that's your choice, do what's right for you, put your happiness first. I'm going to book you in twice a week and you can keep me updated" Tyler said with a smile, twice a week..that's not bad, I suppose it could be worse. I gave a small smile back before replying "thank you" Tyler changed his cheerful expression to more of a serious one, looking deep into my eyes "Luke..do you love him?" wow, that hit hard "of course..more than anything" "you know how you feel Luke. you can't let anyone control you. Just be yourself, respect yourself, love yourself. Don't let anyone walk over you, here..take a look" Tyler said and handed me a leaflet which was..an interesting one to say the least. "Thank you..I'll try my best" I mumbled and looked down at the, no offence but shitty and corny leaflet, you know those basic ones they have to give out? I couldn't help but have a 😶 face, Tyler must have noticed since he tried to reassure me "hey, don't be put off by the title. They're just little puns to help break the ice" he said with a smile. The title of the leaflet was "don't love them anymore?!" with some emojis "aha..fair enough" I said and got up "well, thank you for your time..I appreciate it" "see you Tuesday?" Tyler said with a grin, wow he's a happy guy for sure, wish I could be that happy one day. "See you Tuesday" I replied with a smile myself and left the room.

Right now I just needed to chill, I'm proud of myself for going but I couldn't stop thinking about how I bumped into Calum, why didn't he tell me he was going? why did I care so much?

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