Flatmates// Cake & Mashton

Chapter thirty seven

Ashton's pov

I woke up to a surprise, Michael looking down at me from sleeping on Calum's top bunk, I completely forgot he stayed last night "morning" I mumbled and rubbed my eyes "morning Ash..you okay?" he asked softly, I sat up in my bed and looked properly at Michael but finding it hard to maintain eye contact from last night, I still felt pretty awkward about the whole situation which wasn't like me "yeah..yeah you?" "yeah" Michael said and got down from the bed "thanks for letting me crash..can't believe Calum stayed with Luke last night.." he added "no worries..yeah I know, it's pretty cute" I admitted, they were so adorable together, I wish one day I can have something like that, but I'd only want that with Michael "do you think they?.." Michael asked carefully, hinting towards wondering if they had sex "oh I don't know..maybe" I replied, the atmosphere growing rather awkward, the look on Michael's face showed that he regretted asking that "so do you still want to um..get that coffee?" I asked, changing the subject "yeah..if you do?" "yeah..yeah" Jesus Christ the awkward atmosphere was getting worse by the second "yeah sure..I should.. probably shower first and change first. Want me to..meet you in half an hour or so?" Michael asked "sounds good..see you in a bit" he gave me a small smile before leaving the room and I'm guilty of watching him leave the room while longing for him.

I sighed and got out of bed, deciding to have a shower myself which helped me feel more refreshed and changed for the day, while doing so I remembered that Michael and I held hands last night before falling asleep, even when I woke up in the middle of the night at one point, our hands were still entwined, he must of had one heavy case of dead hand Jesus, can't say I was complaining about holding his hand, I loved his touch. Calum had just walked into the room, closing the door behind him "Ash?" "alright Cal?" I said and put my shoes and jacket on "hey..sorry about not coming back last night, got a bit carried away" he said and put his phone on charge, I chuckled "it's all good, did you have a good time?" "yeah it was great" Calum said with a smile "what did you guys do? bit of fun?" I asked and raised my eyebrow "nah no video games or anything, we were too tired" I felt myself have a 😶 face at his response, mentally facepalming myself "ah right..okay..fair enough" "did you and Michael play video games?" "what? no..we slept. That's it." "yeah he said he stayed in my bed. Is everything okay with you two?" Calum asked and looked concerned "no, yes, I don't know..I don't know Calum" I had no clue in all honesty and I really wish I did, now it was Calum's turn to have a 😶 face "sorry..I just.. wanted to help.." I sighed, I didn't want Calum to feel bad, I know he was only trying to help "I know I know..sorry I'm not trying to be rude, it's just hard. I need to give him space so that he can figure himself out but that's..easier said than done" "aren't you meeting him today though?" Michael must have told the other two I assume "well yeah but I don't really know what to expect" "just..go with it, you've both got some figuring out to do but let it come naturally" Calum said with a reasurring smile "yeah..you're right..thanks Cal" "I mean neither of you are hurting anyone" "I know I know..anyway I better get going, I'll see you later, have fun with Luke" "you too..with Mike.." Calum said and starting getting ready for his day ahead too.

I was ready before Michael, I sat on the sofa waiting for him whilst scrolling through my phone but a minute or so later I heard his voice "you ready?" hearing his voice alone made nerves build up, we both knew we had to do some serious talking and I'm not sure if I was ready, I looked at him across the room, fuck he looked really good but now was not the right time to be thinking about that "yeah, let's go" I said and got up from the sofa before I had a chance to change my mind, we left and went to the coffee shop down the road, Michael payed but that was after we were going back and forth about it for five minutes and the barista looked like 😶😶 Michael could be more stubborn that me sometimes so I just gave up and let him pay, we sat down at one of the tables, neither of us saying anything for a minute or so "so.." I said, hoping Michael would take the hint "I mean..I'm sober now..but..I don't know Ashton..I'm.. questioning my sexuality.." Michael said and sighed "I get it..it's a confusing experience to go through" "I'm glad you understand..but I'm not doing it because..I want to experiment you know? I never did it with girls and I'm not going to start doing it with you" "so.. just to be clear, why are you doing it then?" I asked which made Michael sigh again before responding "I don't know..urges are coming over me that I can't control. But I'll stay away if you want me to.." "I don't want you to stay away..I really enjoy being around you Michael" "you can tell me if you don't." Michael said, sounding like he didn't believe me "I'm not lying Michael, I really do enjoy spending time with you." I wish he knew how much I enjoyed spending time with him "but..not in that way right?" Michael asked as I took a sip of coffee, right, now is the time to be completely honest with him "I like you Michael. I like you a lot, more than a friend..that's why I've been sleeping around more recently because you said you were straight..I've been trying to ignore the feelings but I can't, not anymore." Michael had a sense of relief bonce off him "really? so..this means that..you do like me? like not just for my body?" I nodded slowly "yeah..I like you for all of you.." "then.." he said and leaned over the table and kissed me, I kissed back gently "I'm sorry for.. messing with you.." Michael said and looked into my eyes, looking guilty "don't be sorry.." I said and sighed "I just..don't know..what we should do.." I admitted, it was a tricky and I didn't want him to feel like he had to rush on what he was feeling "hey..we don't have to do anything.. just go with it" Michael said "yeah..yeah okay" I agreed, Michael smiled and kissed my cheek, resulting in me blushing.

The awkwardness tension had gone and we were finally able to be back to normal with each other with the occasional flirt or kiss, it felt so right being like this with Michael.

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