Flatmates// Cake & Mashton

Chapter forty three

Michael's pov

It was so lovely when the four of us shared moments like this together, simple but loveable, I was watching the game but I was more interested on my attention being towards Ashton, stroking his leg and loving how it felt and loving it even more when he placed his head on my shoulder, it fitted perfectly. "Scoreeee!" Calum said once there was a score on the match, Luke kissed Calum's cheek "cutie" he said and glanced at Ashton and I with a fond look with how we were being with each other "yaaaaaaaaaas go team!!" Calum said jumped up with excitement "oioi!" I said, Luke jumped at Calum's actions and chuckled "Jesus Christ Cal! you scared me" he said "hehe sorry! people get shocked about how excited I get about football, apparently I seem too gay?" Calum said and giggled, sitting back down "nobody can be too gay" I replied with a giggle "never too gay baby" Luke said and put Calum on his lap, I wish I could do that to Ashton right now, he's been pretty quiet "back in a minute, going for a smoke" Ashton said and got up started to walk out, hmmm.."I'll join you Ash" I said and got up, following him, the two of us going outside.

We lit our cigarettes and began to satisfy our nicotine craves "not a fan of football I see?" I asked and took another drag, Ashton shrugged "it's alright" "you seem off..are you okay?" I asked him with concern although I had a feeling I already knew what it was about, those twin twat cunts "yeah yeah, I'm fine. You?" he asked and took a drag as well, I didn't want him to start shutting off from me now, especially since from how we've been today "you sure?" I continued to ask "yeah..I don't know..I just have a feeling those twins are up to something..like bad..ah I don't know, I'm probably just overthinking it" I sighed, I felt the same "I..know what you mean. Well..we will go to my room and talk about the prank we will pull on them!" I said and stubbed my cigarette out, hoping the prank would cheer him up, Ashton also stubbed his cigarette out after taking his last drag and smiled with his adorable dimples showing "sounds like a plan" he replied "let's go! also..does Calum know that Luke will be staying with him tonight?" I asked Ashton as we started making our way back into the flat and wiggled my eyebrows "oh shit, I forgot to tell him, I'll tell him when we get in, I'm sure he won't be complaining" Ashton replied with a chuckle "let's go in" I said and smiled, the two of us jogging back into the flat.

Calum and Luke were as we left them, cuddling on the sofa "hey guys, I've already asked Luke about this but we need to check it's okay with Calum" I said, I mean I knew it would be fine, they are a couple but it's still polite to ask "yeah? what's up?" Calum asked and the two of them looking over to us, "you um, good to er, stay with Luke tonight?" Ashton asked, it was pretty adorable how he asked awkwardly, Luke chuckled fondly at the way Ashton asked, it wasn't often he was like that but was still adorable regardless "me? yeah..sure..in our room or?" Calum asked "yeah but only if that's okay with you" I said, Luke got up, placing his hand into Calum's "right, I think we'll be heading to bed soon. Have a nice time guys" Luke said to us and smiled and giving me a wink, I really did appricate how understanding and supportive they were of mine and Ashton's situation we had with each other "oh yeah..I'm not sure if we'll be doing that or not yet..but..thank you.." I said and smiled back, I still wanted to talk to Ashton first before we went to bed "well of you do decide to play video games..have fun!" Calum said, Ashton had a 😶 face "aha.. goodnight" Luke said with a chuckle "goodnight" Ashton said, Luke and Calum then jogging into the bedroom.

Ashton and I went into my room "so.." I said and locked the door, I didn't want us to have any interruptions "did you know we have a kettle on our room? do you have one in yours? did you want a hot chocolate or something?" I asked, probably asking too many questions at once but I wanted to break the ice a little bit, it wasn't awkward between us but after today's events, emotions were all over the place "um..no thank you" damn it, I probably sounded like a weirdo "o...kay?" I said and sat down on my bed "come here and speak to me Ash" I said and gave him a reassuring smile, he hesitantly sat down next to me "I'm not good with my words" he said, bless his heart, I really did feel for him "I..I get it.." I said am sighed "look if you don't trust me.." I started to say "no no..Michael it's not that..it's really not that, I promise" "I have trust issues too. I know what it feels like." I said, Ashton stayed silent for a few seconds like he was deciding what words to use "would you mind if I asked why?" he asked carefully "you first." I said, I didn't want to sound rude but my trust issues were so bad that I didn't want to open up if he didn't first "I've..told you, that night, what was up and why I am the way I am..so..it's just like that..but..worse" he said, looking frustrated that his words weren't coming out how he wanted them to, I appreciated that he was willing to talk to me about his issues and didn't question me further on why I wouldn't open up just yet, that's one of the worst things someone could ask me "I remember you saying you used to sleep around to feel better about yourself. But now..you've got me..I care about you..do you still feel the same way?" I asked gently, Ashton sighed "I know..it's just..not that easy sometimes, brains are cunts..it's not easy to think differently about yourself overnight, you know what I mean?" he said "why do you think..you need sex to feel better though?" "because..that's the only time I feel good about myself..people compliment me..or be nice even..when I can't think good towards myself, there's always something to change, something to improve, I don't know..but then I just feel worse when it's over" my heart felt for him, it really did, I hated to hear how this is how he felt about himself, I really wish he could see how beautiful and precious he is "well..if you objectify yourself then others will do the same. I mean yeah.. you're amazing beneath the sheets but there's so much more to you. Ashton. You're a beautiful person. Inside and out. You're kind..caring..funny..and you know how to stand up for yourself. To me, you're perfect." "Thank you Michael..I just wish I could believe that myself.." "well..I know it's tough but you can do it, when you're ready. For now.. just know my belief is with you. All the time. Now we had some awesome sex earlier but..I think it's about time you have romance a shot. Come on, give me a cuddle. I'm gonna cuddle you until you fall asleep" I said, meaning every single word I said so much, he was an incredible person and I really wanted him to know that I thought that, I laid down on the bed and gently pulled him down beside me, putting the covers over us, wrapping my arms around him and loving the feeling of him cuddling into my side "is there..is there anything you want to get off your chest?.." he asked carefully "well..at the moment I just care about you. I want you to be happy" "are you happy?" "I am..for now" I said and smiled, stroking his back "good..you deserve to always be happy" Ashton said and rested his eyes close, his words made the butterflies go crazy, I really was falling for him a lot "as do you.." I said, keeping my eyes on him, taking in all of his beauty and kissed his cheek "goodnight Ash.." "goodnight Mikey.." Ashton said back softly, soon falling asleep into each others arms.