Flatmates// Cake & Mashton

Chapter sixteen

Calum's pov

I don't know where Ashton was, he hasn't come back for a few hours now. I was worried, I hope that he was okay, I had just finished getting ready for bed and climbed into my bed, holding onto my teddy that I won earlier with Luke. The door soon opened and Ashton went straight into the bathroom, getting ready for bed I assume. "Hey" I said once he had come back out and looked over to him "you alright?" I asked "yeah, you?" "I'm good..you left rather.. abruptly..you sure you're alright?" I asked again, I had a feeling there was more than he was leading on. "Yeah" he simply replied, even though his facial expression said otherwise "sorry..did you have a good time with Luke? you guys were really cute earlier" noticing how he changed the subject yet I decided to drop it for now, I'm sure he'll talk to me about it when he's ready "wait what? oh no..um I mean yes, I did but it's.." I sighed and felt my cheeks blush extremely "it's not like that.." I added, I know for a fact that Ashton saw that blush "are you sure? looks like someone has got a little crush" I hid my face with my hands immediately, feeling even more shy and embarrassed "no! no I don't! I j-just! he's a friend okay! I mean we flirt but we are friends, plus he's in love with someone else!" I blurted out "Cal..look at me" I couldn't, I felt so embarrassed, what if Ashton thought I was being stupid? I counted to ten before finally taking my hands away from my face and looking at him, I didn't want to seem rude.

Ashton gave me a reassuring smile before speaking up "what is it? I'm not going to judge you,whatever it is" "I lied. Last night, I've never kissed a boy, I've never even had a boyfriend! I've never even liked a guy before..apart from celebrities and models" I said with a frown "I feel like I don't fit in with you guys..you guys have all been in or are in relationships.. I've never even been kissed.." I admitted. Ashton climbed on the ladder up to my top bunk and sat beside me "Cal..it's okay to have not experienced any of these things..not everyone experiences them so soon and that's okay, if anything, it's admirable. I really admire you for the way you are and it takes a lot of courage to tell someone. You will have someone, but just.. don't rush anything.. especially don't rush your first time, you'll regret it, trust me." Ashton's sweet words warmed my heart, it was nice hearing this type of side to him, I cuddled my dog teddy closer to my chest "just.. please don't tell Luke..if he found out that I was a virgin or lied about being kissed..I feel he'd.." I started to say yet stopped to stressfully sigh before continuing "what am I saying, he has a boyfriend and I've known him for three days. I don't know what it feels like to like somebody..it's never happened before.." I admitted "I'm not going to tell Luke or anyone, I promise. Tell me how you feel around him" "thank you.." I said and looked down in embarrassment "I like the way he looks after me..his hugs feel warm and fuzzy, the way he comforts me..makes me feel tingly inside. And I've also had one of..those..feelings..towards him..that I've never experienced with anyone else" I looked back at Ashton who gave me a gentle smile "sounds like you've got a crush Cal. They can be.. overwhelming. But always know that I'm here for you and you can talk to me about anything, no what what okay?" It warmed my heart to hear Ashton tell me that, that he was there for me, as I was for him too. "Thanks Ashton.. you're a great friend" I said and smiled "I wish I wasn't such a baby when it comes to this stuff" I admitted, Ashton chuckled "don't be silly, you aren't a baby. It's new, it's exciting, just remember to have fun and go with the flow." "I- I can't do that..I can like hiim..look at him..think about him..but can't touch him. He's with somebody and I can't put him or myself in a position like that. It just wouldn't be right" I said and squeezed my teddy more "but you can be there for him, you can be his anchor, regardless of him having a boyfriend. You guys get on really well, it's better than not getting along at all." he was right "that's what I intend. Not gonna lie..I stalked Kyle's Instagram and he kind of seems like a prick..is it weird that I did that? only once.." "nah it's not weird, I do that all the time. What makes him seem like a prick? well apart from that phonecall Luke had with him earlier" "well.. he's very much a..lads lad. You wouldn't expect him to be gay at all really" I admitted "hmm..weird.." "it is a bit" I said and looked over at the time, it was already gone midnight at this point so technically uni started today "shall we hit the sack?" "yeah good idea" Ashton replied and went down into his own bed "goodnight Cal" he said as he got comfortable "night Ash, thanks for talking to me tonight, I appreciate it" "of course" he said sincerely, both of us falling asleep, my last thoughts being infatuated with Luke.

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