Flatmates// Cake & Mashton

Chapter twenty four

Michael's pov

I was currently on my way to my counselling session with Tyler, it's the last thing I wanted to do, considering what happened earlier today at the gym. Calum and Luke asked in the groupchat the four of us had if we all wanted to do something later tonight which I agreed at, I think it could get my mind off things, I would be lying if I didn't say I got a little more excited when Ashton agreed at well.

I knocked on the door and Tyler opened it with his classic smile "Michael! great to see you! come sit" damn I wish I had that energy "hi Tyler.." I said as we both sat down "so tell me, how have you been since our last session?" okay Mike, it's now or never, you need to start confronting these new emotions out loud, the current issues I was having was already enough on my plate, big pft "well..I've been better. My friends are lovely but I'm still worried about them fucking off? and what makes it worse..I am starting to question my sexuality when I saw one of them at the gym..who even am I anymore?" I confessed "if the relationships you have with your friends are good and stable, I wouldn't worry about them leaving you. Hm..so when you saw him at the gym, what happened exactly?" "well..he was working out and I liked what I saw..and stuff happened..you know..that thing that happens?" I was starting to feel awkward as fuck, I hope he wasn't going to make me say it out loud. Luckily Tyler just chuckled, catching onto what I meant "yes I know what you mean, so did you tell him? not about that..but that you found it attractive? or hinted towards it at all?" he asked "no..I couldn't, I feel far too vulnerable for that, he's got everyone fancying him, the last thing he needs is his close friend dropping a bombshell like that" I said, frowning at the fact that he would never feel the same back "you never know, he could feel the same way about you too. You don't know unless you try" Tyler said with a smile "it's happened with girls before and they've fucked me off and broke my heart. It's not gonna be any easier with a guy" "liking someone is the same, no matter what the gender is but not everyone is going to leave you, you need to remember that. Who knows, like I said at the last session, love comes when you least expect it" I started to feel immensely sad and upset towards this situation, I don't know what to do, I feel hopeless "yeah..I don't know..I need to figure myself out before acting on this, I don't want to mess him around or..scare him off. I need to just be me I guess" I replied with my heart feeling heavy "I'm glad you are being mature about it and thinking of what is the best approach to do, most people would just act impulsely. The best person to be is you because that is the best person you can be" "yeah..I think I should be fine..but what do I do about..these feelings if they don't go away?" I asked "if they don't go away, act upon them, even if it's just baby steps. Do you know if your friend likes guys?" Tyler asked back "he does..he likes other guys and girls..a bit too much.. that's what I'm afraid of, I'm afraid of getting hurt" I admitted "a bit too much? do you mean like he sleeps around? well just see how it goes, who knows, maybe you can be the one to change him for the better" "I can try..but sleeping around isn't my thing, I have to really like someone and I can't have someone who doesn't care about me, just use me" Tyler gave me a sympathetic look "that's fully understandable, of course sleeping around isn't something that should be done at all really, it can be far too dangerous. For now just stay on friendly terms with him while you are still trying to figure it out"  "yeah..good idea.. I've only known him since last week after all, I can't tell him how I feel just yet..but at the same time, I worry about him sleeping around. Not out of jealousy but about him being safe.." I said and noticed how Tyler looked like he was reminded of someone else once I had said that, could it have been Ashton? we did bump into each other last time..maybe Tyler knows why Ashton does it, ah fuck if only I knew "he's your friend, it's normal to be worried, maybe try and talk to him about it. Find out why he does it and it could give you some reassurance" "good idea.." I replied, it was, I knew there was more to the story than it seems and I wanted to get to the bottom of it, it was all I could constantly think about for the rest of the session.

A few hours later was the time we'd decided for the four of us to hang out, currently there was just me, Calum and Luke, I hadn't seen Ashton since this morning and the other lads said the same too "has anyone seen Ashton? didn't he say he was going to meet us?" I asked, feeling myself getting worried. Calum shrugged "he said he will join us in a bit" he replied "don't wanna assume but he's probably having a shag" Luke said and took a sip out of his vodka and coke, the thought made me frown, I hope he wasn't "I hope he isn't long..it's not the same without him.." I replied, evident that I really wanted him here. Calum gave a look to Luke about my comment, not really sure what he was trying to say but Luke gave a look back to him with a smirk. The three of us sat down on the sofa and chatted while sipping on our drinks. Five minutes later I felt my heart race once I heard the front door open and close, butterflies building up in my stomach, they were the most intense butterflies I have ever felt and they went even more crazy once that beautiful handsome man came into sight.