Flatmates// Cake & Mashton

Chapter sixty five

Ashton's pov

We were in utter confusement, why the fuck were the twin twats trying to redeem themselves? since when did they care about what they were doing? they've been doing it for months now, I was having a hard time believing they meant any of what they were saying and I could tell the boys felt the same too. When the twins went to let their girlfriends in Calum shrugged "it's fine..I can handle it" he said and took the shot, his face said it all, he hated it but it was too late now, good luck to him "Cal.." Michael said and sighed "Cal, no more okay? you'll be sick." Luke said and rubbed his face stressfully, the three of us took our anyway, we needed it. We heard the twins walk back into the room along with their girlfriends, I didn't even bother to look at them, I literally couldn't give a shit "sorry baby.." Calum said to Luke and held his stomach "um..I don't feel so good.." he said, ah Jesus Christ he's gonna spew "Cal honestly mate, calm down with the drink" Michael said and looked over to our unwanted company "oh hey Zar- Jesus Christ!!" he said, his eyes filled with shock, wait what? how does he know one of them? and why is he so shocked? "Michael what?" I asked confused and looked at the first girl I saw "hi Michael!" she said with a smile, did he know her or something? she looked familiar..but I couldn't put my finger on it, Michael's face filled with dread and quickly bolted out of the room, what the hell? I looked at the other girl and I really wish I fucking didn't, I felt my face drain of colour, I felt sick. "Um..is he okay?" Calum asked with confusion "pffft how rude. Ashton what's wrong? you look like you've seen a ghost.." Chad said and raised his eyebrow "a ghost of his past, yes. Hello Ashton. Why'd Michael run away?"  the other girl said whilst looking at me, Zara. The only other person I had been in a relationship with, a relationship I thought was filled with love but turned out to be everything but that, how the fuck is she at this uni? surely I would have noticed before?? Luke frowned "what was that? and what are you on about? ghost of his past?" Luke asked glancing at everyone hoping for some answers, but I couldn't give any, I was speechless, my heartbeat was beating like crazy and my mouth felt insanely dry as horrible memories flashed back "I'll go see what's wrong!" the other girl said followed where Michael went, I needed to check up on him, was he in the same situation as me? was that his ex? looking at her closely she did look like that girl in the club the other night that went up to him, fucking hell, fuck shit fuck.I haven't seen her since we broke up, which was a good two, three years ago "hey Zara did you know Ashton got all tied up and gagged the other night? did you ever get to do that to him?" Chad asked, what the fuck?!  this is so fucking embarrassing "no? oh Ashton I didn't realise you were so.. filthy..long time no see eh?" she said and sat down next to me, urgh god no. "Wait what?! Chad is dating Ashton's ex?" Calum asked looking baffled "filthy is an understatement! he's fucked like over half the uni!" Brad said and chuckled, honestly, fuck. this. I can't stay here, I had too many overwhelming emotions suffocate my brain and walked out of the room and went outside to have a smoke, it was fucking needed.

As I got outside and began to smoke my cigarette I heard an annoying voice follow me "Ashton! wait! come back!" I heard Zara say, I didn't want to be anywhere near her. "Leave me alone. Seriously." I said bitterly and didn't even bother looking at her, keeping my attention on the smoke exhaling out of my mouth, Zara sighed "why won't you talk to me! Ash we've been through a lot! are you pissed off because I'm dating your friend?" I scoffed and glared at her "okay first of all, that cunt isn't my friend. Second of all, don't talk to me, at all. I don't want to see you ever again." "Ughhh Ashton..I literally commented on your weight and body TWICE. Are you never gonna get over that? I loved you. I really really loved you..I know I left you but..now I realise I was wrong and you look better now! have you been working out? please be my friend!" she begged, I couldn't believe the words that were coming out of her mouth, anger was building up, I just wanted to yell at her, to scream at her, she was the one that started so much shit for me, the issues I have with my body, the reason why I slept around so much, she broke my heart, she told me she loved me and broke up with me out of nowhere, told me it was all a lie. I shook my head in disbelief  "it was more than twice and you know that! don't try and make out like I'm the one being petty. You didn't love me, I loved you and you took me for a fucking joke. Leave me alone. Now." I snapped  "fine, if you're gonna be like that over little comments I said two years ago, why should I bother? you clearly have no respect for yourself. Unlike Brad, he's the loveliest man I've met! his jokes are hilarious!" I rolled my eyes feeling rather hurt from how she brushed off what I said, she had no idea how much pain she caused me, how many problems she caused for me, because of her I've never been able to be happy with myself or my body "little comments? you have no idea of what you said has done to me! well good for fucking you, go off to your shit fucking boyfriend and leave me alone!!" I yelled "fucks sake stop yelling at me! this is another reason why I left you! you'd get angry! and now look at you, you're a whore!" she yelled back, her words digging in deep and upsetting me further, before I could even say anything back there was footsteps coming up to us, well, stumbling "err you guys okayyyy?" Calum asked looking concerned and slurring slightly, how much of this conversation had he heard? pft I doubt he'll even remember it in the morning to be honest "I'm not a fucking whore anymore! fucks sake you are yelling just as much as me!" I shot back at Zara then looked at Calum "go back inside Cal." I said, I didn't want him to be roaming around in his state and I didn't want him to see the state I was in either "Ashton you're not gonna let her speak to you that way are you?!" Calum said with shock and gave Zara a dirty look, it's clear he heard enough for his reaction "fuck this." I mumbled and walked off.

I couldn't stay there anymore, it was too much, it was way too fucking much. She was still vile, I can't believe I have to deal with her being back in my life again, once was bad enough, I'll never be able to forgive her for what she did and what she caused, I began to chainsmoke because why the fuck wouldn't I? I was angry, I was upset, I was confused, I was feeling too much at once that I didn't know how to control, I really hope that Michael is okay and I really hope his ex doesn't start any funny business. It's always one thing after another, I felt hopeless.

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Sorry sorry for the short chapter but it will make sense in following chapters, oop sksks