I know that I should have been more terrified than I actually was
but I just couldn't bring myself to get to that place.
The only thing I was truly terrified was - the fact of someone or something could possibly hurt Mew ...or take him away from me , or vice versa .
Being separated with Mew in any way would be a nightmare. He was my life . This was our life, not just mine anymore.
I slept the entire time we were on the plane and when we landed, Mew gently shook me awake.
" Come on baby,We are going home now."
We were escorted out to limo and I immediately laid my head in Mew's lap as the car began to go. I felt exhausted. Physically and emotionally. The more thought about being separated from Mew ,the more worried I became.
" Why are you shaking, sweetheart"? Mew's gentle voice rumbled above me and I sighed at the wonderful sound. I hadn't even realized I had been .
" I'm worried ,Mew" ...
My voice came out soft whisper.
" You know you have nothing to worry about ,I will always protect you."
I sighed again, looking up to meet his warm eyes.
"I'm not worried about what could happen to me... I- I'm worried about what could happen to you. If I l-lose -you"-
" You will NEVER lose me. How many times have we had this conversation, little one? I won't let that happen".
"What if it's out of your control!?
Your not indestructible. I know your s- strong but ... but stuff can happen".
Tears fell from my eyes, landing on Mew.
"I promise ,that will never happen. I understand your skepticism. And you're right, I'm not indestructible but I'm pretty close to it. I'm doing everything in my power to keep us together ,baby. I refuse to leave you".
He pulled me up to sit me on his lap . My knees falling on either side of his body as he leaned forward to lick the tears from one of my cheeks." No more crying , sweet baby". As he grew hard underneath me the tears immediately stopped and I had to hold in a whimper.
Shit. This wasn't the time. Especially in the car with a stranger.
" We're almost home. If you're going to cry it's not going to be because you're sad."
Without another word, I let my forehead rest on his shoulder, breathing in his scent . His wonderful ,calming scent. So manly, so clean, so Mew.
" You're so stubborn... "I whispered into his ear.
"I'm well aware , baby boy. This is why I refuse to let anything get between you and I. But what would be living, really, if I didn't
have you?"
My emotions got the best of me and I couldn't help but grinned myself against him. Provoking a loud groan from him. The driver looked back for a moment and Mew snapped , telling him to 'keep his bloody eyes on the road'.
Mew's lips found the shell of my ear and he whispered sternly .
" Patience, Gulf. No one else is allowed to hear your noises. We don't have privacy in here".
I couldn't help but giggle. I loved stirring Mew's possessive emotions. I loved being a ' bad boy '.
Surprising me , Mew changed the subject.
" Are you hungry ,baby?"
"Starving. I feel like I haven't eaten in days".
" We'll grab some food to go somewhere. Tomorrow we will go shopping. While I'm investigating what is going on, we will be spending a lot of time
inside ,I'm sorry sweetheart but it's for safety reasons. I will have your father over to visit as often as he can."
