Its been hours since the operation started yet there is still none of them went out from the room.My hands were as cold as my name. Her Mom was getting back and forth in the hallways, maybe to calm herself.
To avoid myself from thinking negative thoughts, I made myself remember her reactions a while ago, when I gave her the ring and the bracelet. Her genuine smile was the most beatiful thing I have ever seen in my life. It doesnt give me butterflies but it made my whole damn world.
Yes, it was her smile who caught my attention. What I loved the most when we aren't still together was whenever I caught him starring at me from a far. I was sure that I was the one who was she starring among the our group because I knew that she likes me. Actually, she and her cousin likes me. Why I knew about their feelings? Its because the most of the students in our department knew that.
I liked her, but not her cousin. I dont know why her but one day, I just felt that I like her already.
She was still first year and I was in my second year back then when I decided to move. But I wasnt brave enough to tell her that I like her too, or even talk to her and make friends first that's why, I made it clearly to everyboys around her that I own her. It was a possesive move but the hell I care. I just want to be sure that I'll be her end game.
I put walls around her without her knowing. She's a smart girl but she never did learned that I am moving silently.
I was confident when she was still in her first year bacause her feelings was clear. But the next year, I was bothered because of her silence. She was no longer the loud girl from the freshmens. She seems busy, aloof and serious. Her cousim was no longer with her either.
Arthurs been teasing me since the day he happened to know my silly actions, but it was also great that he discovered it because he helped me find a way to tell boys at our school not to court her or even be near her. So he knew all along how I felt for my Xierra, he was the witness to my undying feelings.
Then, my last year as a college student came. I was a arthur's laughing stuff. He told be I was 'Torpe'. Paulit ulit at nakakairita yon. I know that was an insult.
Then, one day when I was about to borrow a book from the library for our upcoming prelim exams, I saw her in one of the tables and her head was leaning on the tables.
I checked the placed and made sure that my bestfriend was not around before I went near Xierra.
"Hey! You need help?" I asked her.
"Ha?" She was shocked whe she saw me. I felt a little, i dont know. 'Is this kilig' I asked myself but that was just until I noticed her teary eyes.
"Why are you crying?" I asked.
"Nahihilo ako." I dont know how to react because she's too cute when he said that! I should pity her, for the love of God, why Am I like this? I composed myself and cleared my throat.
"You have quiz later?"
"Ah, opo. Mamayang 2pm." opo? Am I an old looking guy?
"Nag breakfast ka ba?"
"Hindi?"
So that explained how she was dizzy and why she was crying in the library, of all places.
I caught her staring at me, for the first time after two years. I checked my bag and saw some snacks in there and handed it to her.
"Next time, dont ever think of skipping your meals. You have to make sure to feed your stomach first before feeding your brain with knowledge. Also, wipe that tears on your face." I lend her my handkerchief.
I had to gave that to her because first thing, she needed that to clean the mess on her beautiful face and second, ofcourse, to have another conversation with her whe she'll return it. Im a wise man, indeed.
I felt my heart beats so fast upon remembering how my feelings grew for her.
I was in the middle of reminiscing when suddenly running people in their scrub suit keep coming in and out on the operation room. I panicked, so was her Mom and Dad.
"Doc, what happened?" Her Daddy asked the doctor
"Excused me for a while, Sir."
The doctor didn't answer Tito and just went in.
The next minutes was the worst. We knew that somethings wrong but we still doesnt know what exactly is happening. An hour had passed and finally. The Doctor came outside with mt mom, also on her hospital suit and together they faced us.
My Mom went straight to me while the other doctor went to my Babe's parents.
"Son," She said and hugged me tightly. "Im so sorry." My heart hurts, alot.
"Im sorry, Mr and Mrs. Viernes. We did our best." said the other doctor.
I just lost the other half of my heat. It was painful. It almost killed me.
Babe. Why did you leave me?
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10/25/2020
BINABASA MO ANG
ICE GUILLERMO [Completed]
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