Nessy Patrizia Reyes
08:47 AM
Panget
I know I've been doing and telling annoying stuffs lately and things like that are not supposed to be taken for granted.
Firstly, I want to apologize. It's not because I casually mention it like it's lightly important. But because I am, or I was, doing it in a wrong way.
Alam mo naman na meron akong napakagaspang na pag-uugali. I'm trying, believe me I do, so hard to be better. All of these, it's all new to me. I never had a girlfriend before. Alam mo yan.
Tyn is the only woman in my eyes until she got married. Alam mo ba panget, when she told us that she is getting married, we are all caught off guard. Lahat kami, alam namin na Tyn will always be our special one. In our own different ways, Tyn holds that special place in our hearts. Knowing that she will marry the love of her life in a few moment, I was surprised that I never felt devastated.
Akala ko kasi noon, she will be the woman I'll marry. Until you came along.
Then, I thought I am not capable of feeling anything. That I don't deserve to be treated like a normal human being.
My own brother bully and hates me. I'm too intelligent. I'm too young, I'm too powerful. I don't have friends in our department. Lahat ng surgeons doon ayaw sa akin. Kung hindi ginagamit lang ako at koneksyon ko, galit na galit naman sa akin dahil hindi naman daw talaga ako magaling. That I am only here because of my father and ADMC is our family's legacy.
That's why I call Xtyn love. She's my love. She gave me a sibling, a friend, a family. FM Boys are the only genuine friends I have. For the first time in my existence, I am belong. I am a part of the whole. I am a team player. Hindi na ko bagay na makikita lang kapag kailangan. I am no longer a trash of someone else because now I am valuable.
All of my life, I am being used. Use, Discard, Recycle, tapos Re-use. Haha! Sobrang lungkot ng buhay ko akala ko lahat ng tao gagamitin lang ako kaya mas pinili ko na lang mag-isa. Pero nung nakilala kita, everything changed.
Hindi pala lahat ng babae mamahalin ako, kasi ikaw minura mo ko.
I never thought that I am capable of feeling anything until I met you.
Panget, I know we started at the wrong foot, pero I am so much willing to make it up to you.
I don't know how to love, I've never been in love but I am so much willing to learn it, everything about it alongside you.
Teach me how to love you right, panget.
Please be my girlfriend.
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