Arch Nikolai Daez
07:57 AM
Arch
Bro, uhm hi?
I want to talk to you personally but I don't know where to find you. Tinanong ko rin si Tyn kasi baka kinausap mo na siya, you did, but you didn't tell her where you are.
The things I might message here now must be discussed personally and kung handa ka na makipagkita sa akin, I'm willing to tell you about everything I typed here again. That's how much I want to fix everything between us.
I know what you feel about me. I'm aware with everything about you, about us. I know you hate me. I know you don't like me and my successes. I know that you feel like I took everything from you. Inggit, selos, galit... ang sakit isipin na ikaw pang kakambal ko yung nakapagturo sa akin kung ano ang mga bagay na yan dahil lahat yan ang naramdaman mo sa akin.
While you lived a life hating me, I am living a life that I wished I could be you.
Sana carefree rin ako tulad mo. Sana I can meet friends and befriend people. Sana I can be normal. I wish I could go out and attend schools. Sana pwede ko rin bagalan ang takbo ng buhay ko.
Everyday, hinihiling ko na sabay tayong aalis para pumasok sa school. Sana ma-experience ko rin yung group work. Sana nagkaroon ako ng crush maliban kay Tyn. Sana nakapanligaw ako. Sana na-experience ko yung Christmas parties tsaka Yung excitement na mag-aannounce ng suspension of classes kapag may bagyo.
When you think that I am having a comfortable life by homeschooling, I wish I can be normal like you.
Sa totoo lang, naiingit ako sa buhay na meron ka. Ang dami kong hindi na-experience dahil sa regalong natanggap ko. Regalong hindi ko hiningi pero napakalaking bagay ang kapalit. Ang mabuhay ng normal.
Arch, hindi ko sinasabi to para magpaawa sayo o ano. Gusto ko lang sabihin na marami na tayong panahon na nasayang. Sana, mahanap mo sa puso mo na mapatawad ako.
Sorry kung pakiramdam mo lahat kinuha ko sayo. Sorry kung pakiramdam mo wala akong itinira para sayo. Sorry kung kinailangan mong makaramdam ng galit at inggit dahil lang sa pagkakaiba natin.
Gusto kong malaman mo na mahal kita at susuportahan kita sa kung anuman ang gusto mo. Gusto kong malaman mong nandito lang ako lagi para sayo. Kung may problema ka o may nararamdaman kang hindi mo masabi sa iba, nandito lang ako.
Kambal, sana magkita na tayo bago matapos ang taong ito.
Let's spend our birthday together.
Oo nga pala, I want to end this year without hang-ups. I am ready to settle down. I want to settle down.
I want to start and build a family soon. I want to be free with hatred, with jealousy and insecurities. I want to be happy. At sana ikaw din.
I want to be the perfect guy for her. I want her to see me as someone who she can spend the rest of her life with. With love, sincerity and fidelity... I want to be with her. I want to marry her. I want to be with Nessy.
I fell in love with your best friend. Kung noon, I am willing to give way for Tyn kung gusto niyo talaga ang isa't-isa, this time, I want to say sorry in advance. I am apologizing now kasi kung gusto mo rin siya, I don't think I can give her to you.
I loved her too much to let her go. I can't see a day waking up without her beside me. I can see her as the mother of my children. I love her so much.
If you can't forgive me and accept me again in your life, please, just please give Nessy a chance to be in yours.
Ayaw kong dumating yung panahon na iisipin mong she's siding with me because I am her husband because you are his best friend and you are also important to her. Noong wala pa ako sa buhay niya, ikaw yung nandyan.
Arch, please stop pushing people away. Us, the people who care about you, we loved you for who you are no matter what. We are family. We will always be your family no matter what happen.
Maliban sa sana bigyan mo ako ng chance to prove myself to you, sana bigyan mo rin ng chance si mom and dad. We are all hurt. We are all in pain. Can we all heal each other's wound together?
I'll see you again soon, bro. I missed you.
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