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"You finally eating I see." Khalil mumbled entering my room. "What they serve you?"
"Chicken and waffles with fruit."
"Mm, you got your appetite back or you just tryna eat." "Tryna eat." I said lowly. "It's harder to lactate on an empty stomach."
Soyari had feedings that alternated. Since she was mostly confined to the NICU— I tried to breastfeed her at least twice a day so that she could be used to it once we got home. She had been in here for her morning feeding and I wasn't able to produce any milk for her, and I wasn't happy with myself at all.
"Well it looks good and I'm glad you're making an effort to eat." He spoke glancing at the plate. "Goodmorning." He said kissing my forehead.
"Morning." I smiled softly.
"I'll go get you some fruit and stuff later so you'll have something to eat."
I nodded playing with my food.
The only reason that I wanted to eat was so that I'd be able to lactate, but it was harder than I thought.
It seemed like as soon as I had Sayori— my appetite left with her.
I don't know if it's because i'm depressed or what but I felt like a terrible mother watching my baby try to eat and nothing comes out.
It made her fussy so the nurses encouraged me to keep trying but I ended up feeding her a bottle.
I cried for an hour straight until I pulled myself together and requested breakfast.
Before I had them not bringing me any meals throughout the day.
I got an incoming FaceTime making Sayori stir in her sleep.
It was Skylar.
"Hey mommiana. Where's my niece at." She cheesed, "So it's fuck me huh?"
I flipped the camera showing her Sayori.
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