𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

STOP IT, PLEASE?

𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐏
✍️:meanie

"I've seen your COG, Eian. I don't like it." My mom said as I stepped in. I put my bag down.

"But, mom, I don't have failing grades." I proudly said.

"You should be on top!"

"But mom, I'm still on the ranking--"

"Do you want me to be proud of you? Be on top! Not second, not third, but first! Why don't you  just be like your friend, she's always on the top in their campus while, you? I don't think you have match to her." I smiled bitterly.

"Yes, mom. I'll go upstairs na po." And I secretly cried in my room.

___

"Ei, gandahan mo naman 'yung story mo. Puro lovestory, puro sawi. Gayahin mo si, Kiya. Ang ganda ng mga story n'ya, may tragic, sci-fic--ang astig!"

"Ongaa, Eian. Ang boring ng gawa mo eh! Gandahan mo naman!"

"Hmm. I'll go first. See you tomorrow." And again, tried to hold back my tears.

Those are just some of the reasons why I've never been complete. My heart always scattered into pieces. They always broke me!

Can you please stop it?
Can you please stop comparing me to other?
It's me! I'm not her, I'm not them!
We're far different!
Until when? Until when I could just pretend to be alright? Damn! I also have feelings and damn it sucks!

Yes, they're good. They're better that me. They're the best! But please don't compare me to them. We're different in some ways.
Please be considerate. Consider what I would feel after you've spilled out those words.
Because you know what? It kills me. It fvcking kills me.