Ephemeral //H.S

Chapter 45

-Lucy Urbinati-

"So, how was your date last night?" Kayla asks, her voice trailing off as she hesitates and I frown, my smile disappearing I look down at my hands.

"Was alright, I guess.." I mumble and she sighs, grabbing my chin to make me look up.

"I. Can't. Hear. You. When. You. Mumble." She speaks up, making me roll my eyes and earning a click of her tongue.

"I said it was alright I guess!" I say louder and she frowns, her face scrunching up.

"What happened?" She crosses her arms against her chest, frowning down at me as if she knew that I had done something wrong.

"He was just really pushy, kept on wantin' to touch me and stuff.." I laugh it off and she smiles, making me swallow harshly as my insides clench at the memory.

"Are you serious? What have I told you about letting go huh?" She looks down at me and I nod, rolling my lips into my mouth before she pecks the corner of my mouth.

But I wasn't ready..

"I know sorry.." She nods and takes a step backwards, patting my knee gently.

"I'll be right back, I'm gonna go find him and apologize for you babes." She says and walks away, leaving me sat there with my lips parted in shock, my chest caving in as I swallow the lump in my throat.

She's right, it was my fault after all.

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"Apology drink?" He smiles coyly, handing a red cup he's been holding onto and laughs lightly. I chuckle, nodding at him with a smile. I thank him and take the drink from his hand.

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"Oh my god you're so annoying!" She exclaims and my eyes start to water. "You know what? I'm so fucking done with your bullshit, you're so lucky that Matt is even interested in you and you're just being a brat about it! Do you have any idea how much I talked him into you?!" She shouts at me, my face falling and tears pooling in my eyes. I shake my head as my heart starts to pound against my chest, but it's not racing, just excruciatingly slow and harsh.

"He wouldn't even have glanced at you if it wasn't for me and you're just ruining everything!"

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"Matt where are you taking me?" I say a little louder, fright taking over my body as I try to push his hands away but his grip tightens around me.

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"I was promised a good fuck, so shut the fuck up now." He shouts right in my face, my head turning sideways when I feel his breath against my skin and my face scrunching in disgust. He paws at my thighs, and then bunches my dress up to my hips.

"Keep your fucking mouth shut, can you do that for me baby?" He groans in my ear, my tears flooding past my cheeks and onto his hand, as he walks through the trees, further and further away from the house, the party and other people.

"Why are you still awake?" He mumbles to himself and my eyes widen, my blood running cold as I try to push him away again, crying out inside his hand but he's stronger than me.

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His hands are clammy against my skin and I just lay there, my body useless as he breathes down my neck, his fingers fumbling with the button of his jeans and I just want to scream, I want to wake up because this can't be happening. I need to wake up, it's just a bad dream because he wouldn't do this to me.. This isn't real, it can't be.