"WHAT ARE you doing here, Arlo?"
"Visiting."
"Visiting, who? Ako?" kunot-noong tanong ko sa kanya, pero tinawanan niya lang ako. I didn't know, but after hearing his reply, I suddenly felt somehow relieved. Akala ko siya talaga 'yong client namin for this wedding.
"Yes, since I missed you and I have the feeling that you are avoiding me. I thought I'd pay you a visit here," sabi niya habang naglakad papalapit sa 'kin. He was about to touch my face, but I was fast enough to avoid him.
"I-I'm very busy, Arlo. I don't have time, and I'm currently waiting for our client," sabi ko bago ako tumalikod para umalis. Pero agad din niya akong nahawakan sa braso.
"What's the matter, Cara? What's the deal with you avoiding me? Did I do something to cause you to be this way? Are you upset with me?" dere-deretsong tanong niya. Nakakunot ang noo niya at bakas sa mukha niya ang pagkalito kung bakit bigla ko na lang siyang iniiwasan.
Alam kong unfair para kay Arlo na hindi ko sabihin sa kanya ang dahilan. Pero mas mabuti na umiwas ako habang maaga pa. Tama naman si Gael. Hindi pa ako handa. At hindi ko alam kung kailan ako magiging handa.
I couldn't risk hurting Arlo due to my selfishness.
Nate's agony hadn't completely gone away. I wasn't still healed.
Alam ko naman sa sarili ko na hindi ko pa kayang magmahal uli. At unfair sa kanya na umasa sa wala, na paasahin ko siya sa wala. Kaya ngayon pa lang hanggang maaga pa, kailangan ko nang tumigil. Para rin naman sa kapakanan niya 'to.
"We can't see each other anymore," I said this while looking him in the eyes to show him that I was serious.
I've been hanging out with him for weeks, and I knew how difficult it was to ask Arlo to give up quickly. He was a really persistent person, which was why he was able to get so close to me so quickly. But that was it. I couldn't open myself up to him any longer or he'd get hurt in the end, which I didn't want to happen.
"What?"
"Sabi ko hindi na tayo puwedeng magkita pa," pag-ulit ko. Tinalikuran ko siya at nagkunwaring may ginagawa sa desk ko. Pero ang totoo, hindi ko kayang makita na ganyan ang reaksiyon niya, that he was actually sad that I was cutting myself off from him.
"I heard what you said... but why? I don't understand."
"Arlo—"
"Why so sudden? Why are you doing this to me, Cara? I don't understand..." sabi niya habang napapailing sa mga naririnig niyang salita galing sa 'kin.
Maski ako, hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit, pero alam kong ito ang tamang gawin.
Magsasalita na sana ako nang tumunog 'yong telepono sa desk ko at nakita kong tumatawag si Miss Haira. Agad ko itong sinagot, para din makalayo pansamantala kay Arlo.
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Out of Sight, Out of Mind (Empire #1)
RomanceEMPIRE SERIES #1 (COMPLETED) Carmela Raleigh was orphaned after her grandma died. But she was able to get through it with the help of her lover, Nate, and his family. They treated her as if she were a member of their family and allowed her to live w...