I solemnly swear that I am up to no good | Professor Remus Lupin

Chapter 49 | Transformation

The lessons on Tuesday were really exhausting and I sadly didn't got a break between my usual school lessons and the training with the auror, Alastor "mad eye" Moody. I was really nervous to see him again and still embarrassed about what happened on our first encounter. He was probably hating me already, but I didn't need him to like me, I just wanted the training.

After the classes I informed Grace and the twins and we parted our ways. Dumbledore had informed me that we could use the transfiguration classroom, so I made my way there. I stopped in front of the door and tried to calm myself down, before I knocked on the door.

"Come in" I heard the deep voice of Moody, he already sounded pissed off. I hesitantly walked into the room and closed the door behind me.

"Hello, Professor Moody" I almost whispered and was sure that he probably haven't even heard it, because he was standing at the other side of the long classroom.

"I am not a professor, I am your trainer" he corrected me and I looked at him confused and wondered to myself how he had been able to even understand me.

"I am terribly sorry..." I mumbled. He ignored me and pointed at one of the tables in the front row. I still looked confused and didn't move.

"By a student with your reputation I would have expected more, Miss Falcon" he said annoyed and wondered, if Dumbledore had told him my real last name. I quickly shook my thoughts away and walked to the table he had pointed at.

"Sit" he ordered with annoyance in his voice and turned around to his desk.

"Why?" I questioned without thinking and immediately regretted it. He turned around and looked angry.

"You want an extra invitation?" He asked again and I let myself slowly fall down onto the chair. "You will start only with the theory and then we will focus on the actual transforming..." Moody explained and I just nodded. Then he turned around and picked up multiple books that were on his table. He let them fall down on my table loudly.
"At first you need to know what you are getting into and what you...are" he added and I looked at the books in front of me. Half of them had Veela in their title and the others had things like "beasts", "monsters" or "creatures" written on them. I sighed and started with the first book. It was about different magical creatures and Veelas were called monsters and had a high rating in danger.

I felt myself getting more and more angry at the words on the pages in front of me, they called me not even human anymore.

Some human beings, mostly men, still fall for these dangerous creatures and even make children with them. When the mother passes her abilities to the half Veela child, they can even be more uncontrollable and more dangerous, that's why it should be forbidden for them to have children at all.

I read and couldn't take it anymore, I angrily stood up and looked at Moody.

"How the hell is this supposed to help me?" I said, unable to hide my anger.

He just looked at me and made a weird expression, which some might call a smile. The one eyed man stood up and walked into my direction.

"What do you mean?" He asked calmly.

"All of it...they're saying complete bullshit!" I answered him and my hands formed fists.

"No they are not..." he replied still calmly. "you are a monster, dangerous and uncontrollable." He took a step towards me with every word. " and you shouldn't be allowed at this school nor to walk around freely, putting many lives at risk..."

The anger in me mixed with my worries and I felt my strength leaving me and I fall down onto my knees. I kept my head low and tried to regain my strength. This discussion reminded me on the one I had with Snape about werewolves and this brought  my anger and power back.