I solemnly swear that I am up to no good | Professor Remus Lupin

Chapter 19 | Harry

For the next week I was told to stay in bed and wasn't able to attend the classes. But gladly the other students from my courses told me what they did and I tried my best to learn everything so I won't miss anything. After that week had passed I was allowed to visit my main classes, where I would take the test in at the end of this school year. Those were Potions, Defense against the dark arts, Herbology, History and Care of magical creatures, but the last one was outside of the castle and since I wasn't able to walk properly and needed crutches, I couldn't attend the class and just read about the creatures. Herbology was always one of my favorite classes, I was early good at it too. Herbology had always helped me during potions, since we mainly used plants and I knew much about them.

But after every D. A. D. A. lesson I loved the class more and more, mainly because of our new teacher of course. He was by far the best teacher we ever had in Hogwarts and I always had fun in his classes, and even the other students showed more interest in learning than usual.

It was two weeks after the quidditch match when the other students visited hogsmeade. I sadly couldn't go with them.

"Are you sure that it is okay?" George continued asking me.

"Yes of course" i said and laughed. "You two go and have fun. I will be alright" i assured him and noticed Grace. She was standing next to the large gate nervously looking around and then she saw me and ran up to us. She carefully hugged me and i couldn't hug her back properly since I still needed the support of the crutches.

"I haven't seen you in so long, Maeve. Are you getting better?" She asked me. I smiled and  nodded. She leaned towards me and whispered "...but anyway...I haven't forgotten about our deal." Shit. I already have forgotten about our deal...I promised her to tell her who my crush was, when we would win the match, which we did. Since i had catched the snitch more Ravenclaw students seemed to like me.

"Yes..." I just answered nervously. "We can talk when you come back" I slowly answered. A part of me wanted to tell her. All of the things I was feeling towards him felt so incredible that I had the urge to share them with someone. She nodded and winked at me with a triumphant smile. She turned towards the twins and the three of them left and waved at me before the went through the gate.

All the other students had left, of course they did. Everyone loved the visits to Hogsmeade. I noticed that i wasn't the only one that didn't go. Harry was standing in the doorway of the castle. He looked really upset. I decided to walk towards him, he was staring down at his feet and didn't notice me.

"Hey Harry" I began. I threw him out his thoughts and he looked down at me. A small smiled formed on his lips and I smiled back at him.

"Hey Maeve, why are you not going?" He asked me, then he noticed the crutches and nodded understandingly. "Oh..."

"And you?"

"Well...since I don't have parents and got into some trouble with my guardians, no one could sign the paper for me." He told me and looked sad again. I thought of ways to help them and my mind went towards the map, but the twins had it...maybe next time, I thought to myself.

"Do you wanna take a walk or eat something?" I asked him slowly. I wanted to cheer him up, so that he wouldn't feel lonely.

"Eating sounds great.."

"I like the way you think, Harry" I said with a wink and we giggled. He helped me with walking, even though it wasn't necessary while we slowly walked towards the kitchen.

"Have you ever had matcha?" I asked him after we had talked about quidditch.

"What's that?"

"A greenish drink, that has milk and green tea in it. It's my guilty pleasure to be honest" I explained.

"I want to try it" he stated and we had arrived at the kitchen. After we walked inside and talked to some of the elves I made him and myself two cups of my favorite drink. I handed it to me and he thanked me with a smile. He tasted it and I saw immediately that he didn't like it and laughed at his expression.

"It's so sweet. How can you drink that?" He asked me and joined me laughing as he saw that I wasn't offended.

"To be honest it tastes like dirt if I don't drown it in sugar" I said and continued drinking and laughed at the disgust in his face as he watched me. "I am a sugar addict."

"You should try the tea Professor Lupin makes though, wayyy to much sugar" he stated while he laughed. When Harry said his name nearly choked on the liquid in my throat. I hadn't expect him bringing Remus up. I wasn't prepared at all. I tried to hide my reaction but he looked at me concerned and noticed that I suddenly seemed uneasy and my cheeks had turned red.

"Is everything alright, Maeve" he slowly asked.

"Yeah, yes of course. Why?" I answered quickly which caused him to raise an eyebrow. I need to admit lying wasn't one of my abilities...He looked at me with a hesitant expression like he was thinking of things to say now. I avoided looking at him and continued focusing on my drink. Suddenly I felt him gripping my arm, i just looked at him confused. He pulled me out of the kitchen and lead me down the hallway, it was hard for me to keep up with him with my crutches.
We walked out of the castle onto the large wooden bridge.

"Harry what-" I started but he interrupted me.

"You like him?" Was I really being this obvious? Shit, did he knew too? If everyone was seeming to notice had he noticed too? But did I really like him...maybe a crush...or was it more than that? Harry coughed to get my attention and threw me out of my thoughts.

"I don't know" I answered slowly and looked down onto my feet. "I mean of course...he is a great teacher, he is so caring and kind, he is so curious and interesting at the same time. He is a great teacher and so handsome-" I mumbled in a fast voice out without thinking. I was shocked at my own words and gladly had stopped myself before I could reveal more. I collected my courage to look up at Harry again. His eyebrow were risen and he looked shocked too.

"Shit. I shouldn't ha-" I began to apologize but he interrupted me.

"No, Maeve. It's alright. I will keep it secret, don't worry... I mean I understand why you feel like that. He is a great person, I wouldn't say he is handsome, but anyway ... he is a teacher and you are only seventeen..."

"First of all I am nineteen. I know I thought so too but Dumbledore had told me I am a year older than I thought. And he is handsome, more than handsome to be correct! I know he has scars and everything but I think that is hot." I was shocked at my won words. Again. But I had the urge to defend him. Harry looked at me concerned and started laughing.

"If you say so, Maeve" he said while he laughed. I joined him as I realized how silly this was. Even though I told him how I felt towards my teacher, he seemed to be understanding about it. And he had definitely caught me and I could never talk me out of it. I playfully punched him in his arm.

"So what will you do about it?" He asked after a while and we had started walking back towards the castle.

"Nothing...he is my teacher. It wouldn't work out. And even after school i bet he could never feel the same..." I answered with a sadness in my voice. Harry stopped walking and turned towards me.

"I know he is a teacher and you his student... but if you get out of school he isn't your teacher anymore, he would be beyond stupid if he would turn you down. I know I am not your closest friend, but I surely know that you are really intelligent, funny, authentic, interesting and beautiful."

I didn't know how to handle this compliment and i felt tears in my eyes because of his cute words. So I stepped towards him and hugged him tightly.

"Thank you, Harry" i whispered and he hugged me back.