I solemnly swear that I am up to no good | Professor Remus Lupin

Chapter 2 | Changes

My dad said i should be careful about who i would tell that i was a half-Veela. But I was sure that Luna and Fred and George were an exception, they were the people closest to me. I would tell the twins about it on our ride towards Hogwarts. It was too important to tell them over a letter.

I focused on Luna again. She was sitting in front of me now, still with her face buried in the Magazine.

"Luna?" I slowly asked. I quickly turned a little more anxious. I knew it was really cool or at least in my opinion. But what if my dad was right and people would be afraid of me. I realized that it indeed was dangerous, if I would ever transform... and couldn't control it I could hurt people. I really needed the help of Dumbledore.

"I know" she just said with a smile, but her eyes never left the magazine in front her.

"What? .... how?"

"I listened to your conversation" she said and my mouth was standing open. "And before you worry, I think it's the coolest thing ever and I kind of already was suspecting it to be honest"

I still was just staring at her.

"You are incredibly beautiful, Mae. And when I heard about your passing out story, I came to that conclusion." She finally lifted her head and looked at me. Her expression was her typical nearly emotionless face. She always looked like she wasn't fully here and was in her own world. But in a very kind way, but it sometimes creeped me out.

"Am I?" I was finally able to stutter. My eyes got wet and I blinked a lot and hoped that would made the upcoming tears go away. I always viewed myself as decent or not "incredible beautiful", the only affection I received were some looks from guys at our school. I never thought anything of it and my anxious side just wished I was dead, whenever I got attention. Too afraid that I could do something stupid.

"Beautiful? Of course Maeve. You are just not seeing it, like others." Luna said in a more kind voice. It seemed hard for her to express emotions, everything she said seemed monotone. "If you would see it, be more confident, than I am sure you will appear like you really are and that you are hiding under all your hair, that covers your face..."

This was brutally honest, but true. Like I said I never liked attention, because of my self-cautiousness. I tried to hide as much of me as possible. My long hair covered most of my face and even the upper part of my body. I was always covering up my body with clothes that didn't fit me right. I always wanted to feel good in my own skin and sometimes I felt like I did. If I would get more confident and just didn't really care what others might think... I guess I would stop hiding myself. Luna was always true to herself and never tried to hide it.

"Can you show me how to be more confident, like you are?" I asked her. I knew it might sound a little silly to asked that my younger step sister.

Suddenly my dad peaked his head around a corner and said " do what you always wanted to do and that you have may been afraid of and then stand by it"

I smiled but then realized that he had listened too. "Is it a trend for a Lovegood to listen to private conversations?" I said laughing. My father and Luna joined me. Luna stood up and went towards me and cubbed my face in her hands, looking me directly in the eyes.

"Maeve, what did you always wanted to do?" She nearly whispered in her high voice.

I smirked at her. A motivation and an urge for change filled my body that I never had felt before. A million ideas popped up in my head and i was beyond excited. This news about my mother changed my life in just a few minutes and i already could sense that this school year was gonna be a lot different. I finally would start living and not stop myself from doing the things I loved. I always was only confident around my closest people that i knew I could trust. But I need add that I got a little more confident about myself during my exchange year, but I just wasn't expressing it.

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After a few hours in our small bathroom with Luna my whole appearance had already changed. My hair was now ending above my shoulders and my bangs were not covering up my green and grey eyes. We also decided to dye a part of my hair, but you cloud only see the purple color when I tucked the hair behind my ear or was putting my hair up. I decided to wear longer earrings because you were finally able to see them. And I was embracing the scar over my brow, that was always hidden. I never knew where I got it from though.

Luna seemed more then happy with her work on my hair. And I already felt more then alright in my own skin. I couldn't stop looking at myself to be honest. I was shocked of how good I could look if I only had wanted to. My face looked elegant and "queen like" as dad had called it. In the contrast to that was my colored hair and the scar.

"Shall we go to Diagon alley now?" I asked Luna after we both stared into the mirror for a while. "We got a lot to pick up" I said with a huge grin. I never really liked going shopping. But this time I was more then excited to get ready for the next year and to finalize my look.

Before we headed off my dad had told me that my mother possibly had a save at the Gringotts-Bank for me. So he gave me my real last name. Falcon.