I solemnly swear that I am up to no good | Professor Remus Lupin

Chapter 63 - Teacher's pet

When we relaxed again, we started talking and he gossiped a little bit about his colleagues, causing me to laugh and find amusement in the inside view on my other teachers. I also told him about the tea leaf reading and that Trewlawney never stopped to annoy me about it. He laughed and we both imagined what her reaction would be, if she ever found out.

„But honestly, I think she wouldn't have anything against it..." I spoke my thoughts out loud. „she would probably be like; the stars brought you together..." I said, imitating her and we laughed.

„No...she had a crush on me, when I went to school." He admitted and I chuckled. „She was a few years above us and Sirius always tried to get us together. Mainly to annoy me, since she was even more weird than she is now. Sirius always got the girls and tried to hook me up with their friends...it was hopeless...until he found out that Sybill had a crush on me." He admitted laughing. „James said, that one time, Lily saw her trying to give me a love potion. Gladly, Lily warned me and after that, Sybill never tried anything again."

„Well, I hope she has outgrown her crush..." I said and leaned closer to kiss him. We continued talking until some of his candles had burned down and I yawned. I had gotten pretty tired and snugged in closer and pulled the blanket up to my chin.

„Tired, darling?" He asked me with a knowing smile. I replied with a nod and Remus stood up to turn off the candles, so that the only light was the cold blue light of the moon. He put on some boxers and handed me one of his button ups. I wrapped the soft fabric around my body and only closed one button. I laid on my side and watched him as he put out the candles.

„Is that Trewlaney watching you?" I asked and tried to sound as serious as possible and held back my laughter. The moonlight was shining on his hilariously shocked face as Remus turned around to the window, I was looking out. He quickly realized, that I was only joking and I bursted out in laughter at his reaction.

„Merlin's beard, that look on your face" I said between laughter and earned a slap on my ass from him.

„Very funny" he said ironically, but couldn't hold back his chuckles. He got under the blanket and I got closer to him again. I leaned my head against his chest and another giggle escaped me. He kissed me onto my head and wrapped his arm around me, while my arm was placed over his chest. I felt myself relaxing in the warmth of his body and closed my eyes.

„Sirius pulled the same prank on me" Remus stated in a sleepy voice and chuckled, before he fell asleep.

My tiredness seemed to be gone, caused by his comment. I lay awake and thought about everything I knew about Sirius. I couldn't stop my mind wandering towards Harry and the way he had reacted...the hate and disappointment in his eyes. Fear crept up in my at the thought of Remus reacting in a similar way. Harry's expression usually always had been cheerful and happy, when he saw me, some might say, he even looked up to me. But when he had found out or assumed my relation to Sirius, the man who was the reason his parents were dead...it changed everything to him. The fact that I could be related to that man, made him despise me...caused by only one thing...the potential of my actual last name being "Black".

What if Remus would react like that as well? He had every reason to, James, Lily and Peter were his closest friends besides Sirius himself, almost like family... 

The man who destroyed everything, not only for Harry, but him as well...could have the same blood that was running through my veins...What I it would break his heart?

 I tried my best to push those thoughts aside and remembered the way Remus still spoke of him in adoration. Even with all the news, that he was a murderer and escaped out of Azkaban and what horror stories everybody else had in store about him... Remus still described him in a loving way. In those stories Sirius was really kind, open, curious, unpredictable and extremely hilarious...it almost felt like the Sirius in Remus stories and the Sirius that escaped Azkaban were two different people...