I solemnly swear that I am up to no good | Professor Remus Lupin

Chapter 50 | study time

I woke up and turned around and sadly didn't feel Remus laying next to me, I opened my eyes only to find out that I was in my on room. Grace was still asleep and and I looked at the clock. I still had an hour until we needed to wake up, but I wasn't feeling really tired so I decided to get ready. I silently walked into the bathroom and changed into my uniform after brushing my teeth and cleaning my face. My mind always drifted to the events of yesterday...my successful transformation, Dumbledore's words and the "dinner" with Remus. Grace and the twins gladly believed my lie, when I told them i was at the training the whole time. I had also told them that Dumbledore had warned me about talking about my powers. They assured me that they would keep it a secret, of course.

I also had agreed on having the training with Moody every second day from now on, or to be correct Dumbledore had chose that for me...I wasn't completely happy with his decision, since the O.W.L.s were just ahead of me. Of course, I was a good student and all, but I still wanted to get good grades and I feared I wouldn't archive my goal with the additional exhausting training. But I really wanted to learn to control my powers, only that way I wouldn't be a danger to other students and could prove that, if necessary.

The days before the O.W.L.s were even more exhausting then I feared. I hardly found any time for Remus or my friends, but they were all really understanding gladly. Two days before my first exam I had another training session with Moody. We were getting along surprisingly well, even after our rough start. I started to like him and his methods always seem to work, even-though sometimes they were definitely questionable. In my last training lessons i had started to learn how to archive the power anger was giving me, without actually needing to get angry. Only once i had managed to transform fully.

Moody was explaining something as we heard a knock at the door. He told me to continue focusing my thoughts and not to bother and I did. It was like meditating and I managed to shot off my surroundings completely and concentrated my mind on my goal, the transformation. Moody always told me that it helped to visualize the goal. After I felt I had done it successfully I slowly began to open my eyes, Moody was at his desk again watching me.

"Excellent, now stay focused" he told me. I had done it and smiled, proud of myself. I looked down at my hands and the tips of my fingers were black, like they always did when I transformed. I also felt the weight of my wings on my back.

Moody walked to a tall iron chest and opened it, the inside was completely pitch black. This was my target where I should shoot the fireballs at, so nothing gets demolished again. I let out a heavy breath before I lifted my hand up. I managed to form the fire ball, but as I tried to throw it into the box, but it didn't go as planned and it didn't just disappear into it, more like the fireball destroyed the whole box.

Moody and I just stared at the destroyed box with open mouth for a few seconds, before we realized what I had just done.

"Shit" i breathed out.

"Yeah okay, this didn't go as planned..." Moody stated and looked at me. After staring at each other we started laughing and for some reason this situation was extremely funny to us. When we had calmed down again and Moody tried to use a spell to fix the large box, unsuccessfully, we sat down on one of the tables. I still hadn't transformed back, which was new because I had never managed to stay in my Veela form for this long.

"Who was at the door before?" I asked Moody when I remembered it.

His expression turned very serious and concerned and he stayed silent.

"What? What's wrong?" I asked him confused.

"Nothing. Just McGonagall checking on your progress" Moody answered and his expression changed again, he was acting weird and I could feel that he was lying, but I didn't wanted to dig deeper and I was really exhausted.

"You must be exhausted, you can leave now" moody stated before I could have asked anything else. "I really suggest you to get some rest and then you can study tomorrow." He finished and almost pushed me towards the door, before he opened the door I transformed back into my normal form. He showed me through the door and mumbled a quick "good bye" before he closed the door behind me again. That was weird, but he still was right and I needed to focus on my exams and get some rest, tomorrow was the last day before the first O.W.L. Exam...

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I had spend the complete day in the library with my head buried in different books. I had seen Fred, George and Grace in the great hall during breakfast, but after that I immediately had started to spend the day studying.

"Here you are..." i heard the familiar voice of Remus behind me and jumped up and hugged him. It felt like an eternity we hadn't seen each other.

"I missed you" i whispered into his ear.

"I missed you too, darling...but we shouldn't do that in the schools library..." he whispered back and tried to gently push me away from him. But at this point I was emotionally too exhausted and this was exactly what I needed and hugged him even tighter.

"Someone could see us, Maeve" he said and chuckled.

"Alright, alright...do you want to sit down with me?" I asked him after I let him go. He nodded and we sat down on the wooden bench. I noticed that the library was empty and i wondered why, i looked around confused.

"Where is everyone?" I asked turning toward Remus again.

"Maeve...don't you know what time it already is? Dinner is probably over and it's already dark outside..." he explained. "I didn't saw you at your table during dinner, so I went looking for you..." he explained stroking a strand of hair behind my ear.

"Oh my god, I completely must have forgotten about time..." I muttered.

"Darling, you should eat something and go to bed" Remus told me with a warm smile and kissed me after he had looked around to make sure no one saw us.

"You are right, but I still need to put all these books away or filch is gonna avada cedava me..." I began to explain, but Remus took my hand in his and calmed me down.

"Don't worry, I got this" he told me with a reassuring smile.

"Thank you!" I answered relieved and gave him another kiss. We stood up, I hugged him and kissed him goodbye. " I love you" I whispered to him when we I hugged him. He replied with "I love you too".

"And Maeve...don't stress yourself with the exams. You really don't need to have any worries..." he said with a smile after he let go of me. He took one step closer and whispered "I know I shouldn't have a favorite student, but you are...and not because I love you." He explained with a smirk and kissed me on my head before we said our good nights and I went off to the great hall to quickly eat something and go to bed right after. I fell asleep almost immediately as soon as I touched my bed.

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