💫🧚‍♀️Spiderman/mcu oneshots🧚‍♀️💫 (Book 1)

When you smile, you knock me out, I fall apart

When you smile, you knock me out, I fall apart

If someone were to tell Tony that one day he'd be sitting on the floor of his living room holding his own baby in his arms, he would have laughed and thought they were crazy, but here he was, holding this small child in his arms while the baby slept, his head resting on Tonys chest while Tony kept his hand on the babys back to feel his breathing, he needed to feel his breathing, to make sure he was ok, something Tony just had to do.

He still couldn't believe that this angel of a child was his, it seemed impossible, the idea that such a well behaved and sweet, beautiful child came from him blows his mind everytime he thinks about it, years ago he would have never imagined that he would be a father, let alone a good father, but the day he found out about Peter and the first time he held him Tony promised that he would love this kid no matter what and under no circumstances would he be like his own father. He would always tell Peter he loved him, tell him it was ok to cry, hug him and hold him unlike his father, he was going to try.

He's already told Peter he's loved about 10 times already, he knew Peter didn't understand what he was saying, but everytime he said 'I love you' Peter would smile and squeal and everytime his baby would smile Tony's heart would melt and he always would smile back, because now he had a reason to get better, he had a reason to live, his reason was so he could be there and experience every little moment and milestone in Peter's life, all the way to his first steps till he has his own kids.

Tony loved his son so much, he would do anything for him. He loved the way Peter would babble to Tony when playing, he loved his little smile, his laugh, his brown curly hair and his big brown eyes that would stare at Tony as if he'd just hung the moon and stars above them, like Tony was the greatest thing he's ever seen. Tony loved him. He knew it was a privilege to have this new light in his life, to have this child.

He remembers the night he found out about Peter, he remembers how terrified he was on the phone with Mary, Peter's mother, and he remembers how he froze when she had said "you have son." He felt like he was going to collapse. He was very reluctant to be in Peter's life, he'd screw that kid up, he'd ruin him, just like Tony's own father screwed him up, but when he first took a look at the baby all his fears left just for a minute as he stared at him. His kid. 

He remembers Mary's funeral, she'd died in a car crash. He remembers how Peter had no idea what was going on, he had no understanding that his mother had just died, how could he he? He was just a baby, but still he didn't deserve this. The night after the funeral all those fears of Tony messing up and being a complete failure of a father came back. He was scared. All he could hear was his father's voice, yelling at him, telling him he was a screw up, a failure, a mess.

Then he heard crying, he heard Peter's crying and he immediately made his way to the baby's room, he picked him up and Peter's crying died down. Tony ended up sitting in a rocking chair with Peter asleep in his arms and Tony letting a few tears slip out of his eyes, again just like everytime he held him he put his hand on Peter's back to feel his breathing, his breaths causing his small chest to go up and down, up and down.

That night Howards voice left and it never came came back. Tony still had doubts time to time but everytime Peter laughed or smiled he knew he was doing everything right. Everytime he smiled, Tony knew it was all worth it.

And I thought I was so smart
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Idk I just wanted to write about baby Peter and Tony being a great dad :') I'm really proud of this