forever&always

~CHAPTER 17~

~EMILY'S POV~

"We ran out of medicine. I'll be back soon."

I didn't respond. I just plainly ignored him. I laid underneath the blankets still curled up in a ball. It was getting hot under here but I didn't care. I could tell he was walking away because of his footsteps. I heard him closing the door loudly. There was this sudden part of me that got angry. I couldn't take it anymore. I had just about enough of all this crap. I flew off the blanket and sat upright. I was mad and furious. I tightened the grip on the cover and suddenly glared over at the door. I was for sure pissed. Who does he think he is? Who the hell do you think you are screaming at me and feeling sorry right after? He had no right to scream at me. Harry was walking down the stairs and almost reached the front door. I noticed him sighing constantly. I suddenly stomped out of his bed and swung open the door. I tied my hair in a ponytail slightly while racing down the stairs. His hand reached for the doorknob until I yelled at him. My voice echoed through the whole house.

"WAIT!"

I stood in the middle of the staircase staring at him. I was still a little dizzy but I could take it. He stopped in the middle of going out and slowly turned around. I think he was a little surprised to see me get out of bed. I cupped both of my hands on my waist and climbed the rest of the stairs down. I basically ran down the stairs but was careful not to trip. I angrily walked up to his face and we were face to face. Then, I started to scream and yell at him on what I wanted to say before. I couldn't control myself. I wasn't myself when I was in the middle of ranting at him.

"I know you hate me! Okay? I do! But why? What did I ever do to you? I get the fact that you don't like me! Then why do you keep appearing in front of me?! Why do you even care about me?! It's none of your business!"

Then came the waterworks. The tears I've been fighting started to fall a little by little. The tears I've been holding ever since he started yelling at me upstairs. The angry, hot tears. My vision was blurry and he stood in front of me. I couldn't exactly see his face because everything was blurry. I was hysterically crying and blabbering curse words. I think everything that I blabbered sounded like gibberish. I probably said a mouthful but I couldn't stop myself. I was on a roll. Harry was standing there with a blank look on his face. He was staring into m eyes and I saw him wince. I was wondering what thoughts were racing through his mind. I sniffled my nose and wiped away my tears with my sleeve. After a minute of telling him off, I finally stopped. I was done. I dropped my head to the ground and turned away from him. There. I felt a whole lot better. I told him everything that I kept bottled up for the past few months. I felt refreshed but couldn't stop crying.

"I.. I.. You.."

Oh my god. What have I just done. Holy nuggets. Emily. What the hell have you done. Oh my goodness gracious. I realized what I had said after I already spat them out. AFTER. It was no use in apologizing now. He was probably upset with me now and I couldn't take back my words. My cheeks felt red with embarrassment. I immediately turned around. I swallowed a hard lump in my throat that was very hard to swallow. But I didn't regret it. It still felt good. The knot in my stomach started to loosen a little bit. Harry was still silent and I was walking away slowly. I trudged my way up. I was ready to go back up to my room and cry my eyes out. Why did I say those things? YOU IDIOT. I slowly started to retreat and was in front of the staircase. Suddenly, I heard his footsteps walk towards me. I ignored it and rolled my eyes. I didn't even dare to turn around and face him. I wasn't ready to look at him just yet. I was about to walk up the stairs. At least I said what I wanted too. I said what I wanted to all these months and I was finally able to breathe a little. But he surprised me when he did something I would never ever even dream of doing. I first thought he was going to yell at me back. Yell and scream at me. Telling me how much he hated me and kicking me out of his house. But then, he slowly put his arm around me onto my other shoulder. I was about to thrust him off to the side but he held onto me tightly. He kind of pulled me back and then he rested his chin on my shoulder. I felt his curls on the side of my face. It brushed against me and I was staring off into space for a moment. I stood there frozen- not knowing what to do. We were both silent and didn't say a word. What was his other arm coiled around my waist. What was he doing? He hated me. I looked over to my side and there was Harry. I felt his breath against me and I gasped a little bit. I was going to say something. I opened my mouth but no words came out. I was so startled that I was at a lost for words. I felt him breathing against my neck but I already had my feelings hurt. He also said quite a lot back at the room. I heard him sighing and it felt like he was relieved. He buried his face into my shoulders. I was crying softly. I tried my best to make no sound and tears streamed down my face. I sniffled my nose several times and clutched my head. But I jerked him away. I grabbed his arm that was hugging me from the back to let me go. I murmured something under my breath but he didn't hear me. I slipped out of his arms and climbed the first stair. He stood there frozen. His hands in the exact place where I had left them. I thought I saw a tear stream down his face. Something glistened on his face and he quickly wiped it away. I looked down one more time and wiped mine away. My lips quivered trying to say something. I whispered the words- out of breath.