Under her Addictiveness [Fangirl & Idol Series #2]

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TW: Sexual Assault, Rape, Manipulation, Abuse

True colors

I felt uncomfortable in this house after what Zerlhian did to me. I was so weak that time. I couldn't say no to him nor push him away. And I am pregnant with his brother's child, which is also my husband.

"Zandra, I'll process the papers. Kapag pinirmahan na 'to ni kuya, then you're free."

I didn't want to cut my marriage off with Zylhian. Pero kung pipirma siya, e'di sige. I'll give him what he wants.

"Z-Zerlhian, uhm, aalis ka naman n-ngayong araw 'di ba?"

"Why do you ask?" His brows furrowed as he looked through the papers.

"K-Kasi ano, uhm, wala naman. I was just asking."

Iniwan ko na siya sa k'warto niya. It has been a month since I started living here. And I am slowly seeing Zerlhian's true colors. Everytime that he would kiss me, lumalayo ako.

"Zandra-"

"Gagi! Kumatok ka muna-"

"Yeah, sorry for that. Anyway..." He stopped when he noticed that I wasn't wearing a bra. Matutulog na kasi ako!

Agad naman akong napatakip sa dibdib ko. Manyak. Oo, minamanyak niya ako.

"C'mon, I've seen it before. Nung nag-sex kayo ni kuya at pumasok ako. I saw your chest," he smirked.

"B-Bastos! Z-Zerlhian, lumabas ka nga!"

"Ahh not so fast, baby. Let's play a little. Bed," his eyes were dark.

I was so close to shouting for help but he suddenly pulled out a gun. I was so scared. Natatakot ako para sa anak ko.

"Zandra, never make things complicated. Undress yourself, I want to see your naked body," he flashed a wide smirk.

Nanginginig ako habang hinuhubad isa-isa ang mga saplot ko sa katawan. I prayed for someone to come pero wala. He placed me on the bed and started kissing my neck. Diring-diri na ako.

Hinubad niya na rin ang mga damit niya. At walang pasabi-sabing ipinasok ang kaniya sa butas ko. Nakaramdam ako ng sakit. Naiyak nalang ako sa galit...

Gusto ko nalang mamatay sa oras na 'yon. Gustong-gusto ko nang maglaho. Nanatili lang ako sa kama nang matapos siya. Nagbihis lang siya at iniwan na ako ro'n.

Naisipan kong magsumbong at humingi ng tulong. Pero nawawala na ang phone ko pati na rin ang laptop ko.

"Yes, babe, let's go to my room-"

"Who is she?" Tanong ng isang babaeng bago nanamang dala ni Zerlhian sa bahay, isang buwan matapos niyang gawin ang kahayupan saakin.

"Ohh that woman? She's a maid here."

Naulit muli. Malaki na ang tiyan ko no'n. Natakot din ako para sa bata. Baka kung mapano. Wala siyang pakialam sa pagdadalang-tao ko, basta't makuha niya lang ang gusto.

"Kuya-"

"I won't sign the papers. Now, where is my wife?"

Gusto kong sumigaw pero hindi ko kaya. Hinang-hina na ako. Pagkatapos akong pagsamantalahan at bugbugin ni Zerlhian, wala na akong lakas.