Dean pov
I woke up after some rest and saw seth and roman playing on the xbox They didn't notice I was awake I watched them playing on that for abit well I say watch I wasn't really paying attention I was to busy thinking
I really wanted to go back to work and to have time to myself I mean I know why there are always with me but I need my space
It is stressing me out and to be honest I'm sick of having these fits im sick of being of work im sick of people worrying about me im sick of people acting like they give a fuck im sick of not having my space im sick of everything im tired of it and right now I really couldn't care if the next one kills me cause im sick and tired of it all I've had enough my name being called pulled me out of my thoughts
"Dean?..........earth to dean?...........dean?!" Seth said "hmm" I mumbled "you ok" he asked " Hmm what" I mumbled trying to focus on what his saying
"Are you ok" he said "im great never been better" I mumbled sarcastically
"What were you thinking about dude" roman then asked "believe me you don't want to know" I said sitting up "tell us" seth said "no you don't wanna hear it trust me" I said getting pissed of
"Come on just tell us dean we wanna be able to help you" seth said "you really wanna know that bad" I asked "yes" they said I sighed "I was thinking about how sick I am of everything the fits,not being at work,not having space and how people acted like thay give a fuck
And how im just sick and tired of it I've had enough and right now I really couldn't give a shit if the next one kills me there now you know what I was thinking" I said I could see the look of shock,worry and sadness in there faces
"You were really thinking that?" Seth asked sounding heartbroken
"Yes why do you think I told you you didn't want to hear what I was thinking" I said back standing up
"Where you going" roman asked "to get a drink what wanna come with me" I snapped at him I didnt mean to I'm just not in a great mood but can you blame me for being in a bad mood
He didn't answer me just looked at me I just turned around and went to get a drink
I sat on the kitchen floor leaning my back on the wall and put the water bottle next to me and pulled out my phone and started playing at game on it to kill time it wasn't long before they came in to check on why I didn't go back in the living room
"What you doing" seth asked He seemed to be in a mood with me now great all I need something else to stress about if his in a mood cause im sick of this then maybe he should just go cause it's not him dealing with it now I get it he sees it and it scares him so he says but he don't actually feel it both of them could go back to work when ever they want I can't yet cause they think ill have one while I'm in the ring
"Sitting down playing on my phone what does it look like" I snapped
"Sorry I asked He snapped" back I don't need to deal with his shitty mood right now I got up got my water "im just gonna go to bed I aint in the mood to deal with your shitty attitude" I said but seth grabbed my arm before I could walk out and turned me around "seth just leave him for abit" roman said "get of me" I said trying to pull my arm away "my attitude how else to you expect me to be acting with what you said" he snapped at me
"Seth get the fuck of me let me go" I snapped back " we have done nothing but be here for you and try to help you we have taken time of work to keep an eye on you and you say that" he snapped "I didnt fucking ask you to go of work to be with me seth" I snapped back "fuck you dean" he said "get the fuck of me" I snapped "your an asshole do you no that" he snapped back gripping my wrist tighter "and your a fucking dickhead" I snapped going to pull my arm away "you know what dean I hope the next one kills you too so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore he snapped back then covered his mouth and letting go of my wrist I looked at him in shock my heart just completely shattered at what he just said roman looked on in complete shock "dean im sorry I didn't mean that" seth said I couldn't even speak I could feel the tears in my eyes I turned around and walked out the room I walked up to one of the other bedroom's I aint gonna be staying in the same room as him
I shut the door and leaned against it and let the tears fall how could he say something like that
