Seth pov
A few hours later I had text roman to let him know what happened with dean and he was heartbroken
And worried he asked if I knew where he had been for the past month and I told him I didnt know
He told me to keep him updated and when his clear to leave the hospital where he is he will come over
I felt so guilty when I looked over at dean thinking how this is all my fault I shouldn't of snapped at him and left him like that I should of just talked to him
And now he thinks both me and roman lied to him about caring about him but we didn't
It's my fault
He'll he tired to bloody kill himself and he would of if I didn't have that bad feeling after he left to go to his hotel
I sat back down on the chair and held his head lightly As my tears fell silently
About half an hour later dean's head moved slightly as his eyes began to open
He blinked a few times probably to get everything in focus
His eyes then met mine then looked down at our hands and moved his hand away from mine
"Dean?" I said "w-what seth" he said quietly "Why did you do it" I asked my tears falling again he moved his head to look at me again
"B-because I had had e-enough" he said quietly
"Dean look I love you and I do care about you im sorry about the stuff I said and that I broke up with you I just did it so you would realise that you were pushing me away you went quiet around me you never wanted to do stuff anymore and you didn't even realise it and I wanted you to to stop pushing me away" I said "don't seth dont lie you just feel bad" he said "no its not dean im not lieing I mean it I just wanted you to stop pushing me away and I thought if I left you would release and then we would talk it out and be back to normal again that spark never left dean it just wasn't as strong because we weren't as tight anymore and im sorry I truly am I didnt think of what it would do to you and I definitely didn't think you would do this to yourself just.......just please forgive me dean please I beg you" I said crying my eyes out
I felt his hand go to mine I looked down and his hand was right next to my I held on to his lightly as he had a tube in his hand
He held back with what little strength he had and look me dead in the eyes
"You promised you'll never l-leave" he said just above a wisper before I could answer and doctor came in I moved away so the doc could check on dean
He took some blood to go make sure that his blood is clear and then gave him some pain killers and told him to rest he left and I went back and sat next to him holding his hand again
He went to say something but I cut him off
"I now I promised I would never do that and im sorry I broke my promise but I will never ever do that again just please forgive me dean please It has been hell the last month with out you I missed you and I was scared that you had gone done something stupid cause we didn't hear from you roman is worried too and said when his clear to leave his coming here" I said "if I give you another chance and you do that again I swear to god you will never see me again and that is a promise and I never break my promises" he mumbled the pain killers kicking in making him tired
"I will never do it again I love you" I said kissing his forehead "I love you too" he mumbled his eyes closing and him falling asleep I kissed his hand and just kept a little hold on it cause of the tube I couldn't hold it tightly
I texted roman and told him the news and he said he should be clear in a few days and he will see us then I said ok and wished him a good speedy recovery
